Day 196: what is one thing you regret doing?
I don’t know; I’ve forgotten. I don’t usually regret the things I do, because I can learn things even if I fail. And when I feel regret, it stems from the memory of things I know I should have done. Now, there are lots of those, but they can be summed up in a single, simple wish:
I wish I spoke, then. I could speak my meanings now, but it would never be the same.
Day 197: do you have a set out path for your future yet?
Hah, funny. I can’t even adhere strictly to the 12-hour schedules I prepare, although I do have my hours planned. For people like me, planning doesn’t really amount to much.
But...
After the first semester, I am GOING TO STUDY PHYSICS. Damned if I don’t. If possible, I’ll also start to read about programming and codes.
On the summer after the second semester, I’ll enrol for Organic Chem or Chem 17, if CRS won’t be nice to me. I’ll also take up a course in creative writing, geology... and P.E. But maybe not P.E. xD And! I’ll read all the books I have at home which I haven’t read yet.
Fast forward. On the summer of year 2018, I am GOING TO GRADUATE. BECAUSE IF I EVER GET DELAYED, I’LL DESPISE MYSELF, LOL. And I’M GOING TO PASS THE BOARD EXAM ON MY FIRST TRY. By that time, I’ll hopefully have plans which are more concrete than this. And a boyfriend, I guess. :P
By the age of 27, if I turn out to be the marrying type xD, I plan on being married. Then there goes the jumble of getting a master’s degree (KUNG SISIPAGIN PA ‘KO, HAHAHAHA), having children (yiiiish, the cute little guys), and writing more stories (yeah, like I’m not doing that).
By the age of 30, I should have done something nice for my country. ISKOLAR NG BAYAN, MAGLILINGKOD SA BAYAN. :)
Day 199: what is the last book you read, why did you read it?
Break Open a Stone, An Invitation to Metaphysics – Ma. Liza Ruth Ocampo, Ph.D.
-We have a test tomorrow, so. xD But it’s beautifully written. So beautiful, I’m not sure I fully grasped its import.
Day 200: whatever suits your fancy (a picture, random facts, what you did today, or your plans for tomorrow)...
SOME THINGS I’D LIKE MY PARENTS TO KNOW, xD (I’ll be writing them a letter, anyway.)
-I like the zeroth power of zero. Probably because it’s indeterminate, like me.
-I have an unhealthy fascination with death. I’m not afraid of mine, but other people’s give me nightmares.
-I have troubles with decisions. And defining myself.
-I am proud, and yet I’m not. Take it in what sense thou wilt.
-I hate reading my own work. Even if my friends tell me it’s okay.
-I’m a lazy perfectionist. Yes, such a person exists. I’m a bunch of other contradictions as well.
-Whenever I do something and I’m nervous about it, I think “They aren’t going to kill you for failing, Andie. Chill.”
-I have a tendency to be melodramatic. I love drama and theatrics, but I’ve never been a good actress.
Day 201: what are your plans for tomorrow?
Makakuha ng mataas na score sa Philo (Kapal talaga. Di pa ko nagrereview!) Read Math and Chemistry. Tumambay sa UP Alchemes. Maka-usad sa sig sheet. Matulog ng maaga, HAHAHAHA.
Day 202: what did you do last Saturday?
I can barely remember. Naglaro ng chess sa class tournament namin, tas natalo.
And that was also the day when I learned to commute via the Cubao Ibabaw bus. Proud to say that I’m still alive.
