Please Remember

Sean

Okay, the deal with Sophia... She used to mean the world with me. I liked her throughout all of elementary. I used to adore her like every other dingus my age would adore chocolate. I mean, she knew about it, but of course, dating was gross back in 5th grade, so I never really had a choice. She went to a Catholic school when middle school rolled around, and I never saw her again.

Throughout 6th grade, I missed having her company, having a guide, once again, in my life, but by 7th grade, I had to cut my losses and move on.

After the year passed and I thought I had the system of life down to the last hair, that's when Samantha came into my life. She has changed me in so many good ways, I feel that I need to repay her back by loving her for the rest of our lives.

The only reason I am nervous over Sophia coming back is because she used to be the flirting type, now that I realize that. Samantha is the protective-of-her-boyfriend type. Which, is one of the things I love most about her because it tells me that she loves and cares about me being her life, but I just don't want her to get worried. I am the loyal type of person. Plus, I really love her. She had been with me through thick and thin since we got together. I wouldn't even dream of not having her in my arms.

I think I told her that once.

It was at one of her competitions that I came to support her. She saw one of my ex-girlfriends, that also competed, and instantly lost her smile.

I asked her, "What's wrong?"

She sighed. "It's just that, I trust you so much... sometimes I think it is too much.."

I didn't fully understand what she meant, so I asked for the explanation.

"I mean," she continued, "I love you so much that you could break me to my smallest, you could hurt me to the deep core of me, you could cheat on me with all of the girls in high school next year and tell me it's was a mistake and I would still believe you. I would still wear my heart on the end of my sleeve for you. I don't want to lose you, even if it meant that others make you happier than I do."

She looked and started to play with her fingers. I could tell from looking at her side that she was really upset with telling me how she felt sometimes. I respect her for telling me, but I knew I could fix what Hillel broke. Someday.

I needed to reassure her.

I lifted her chin towards me. Her eyes were watery from wanting to cry.

"Another girl holding my hand where yours should be, would feel like clasping and everlasting blue flame. Another girl in my arms where you should be, would feel like spikes on a cactus burrowing into my heart. Another girl kissing me where your lips should be, would feel like acid running down my throat for the rest of my life. I would never hurt you like that. I wouldn't even imagine it. I love you, Samantha and only you. Please, don't think otherwise. It's us, forever and always."

I looked into her eyes. I could tell that my words meant everything to her. The equivalent of what she means to me.

I didn't tell her that just to get her off my back with all those thoughts. I told her that because I know how it's like to once be heartbroken as bad as she was when Hillel-

I don't like to think about what he did. The point is that I was going to treat her so much better than her Lord Jesus Christ could ever do for her. No girl is getting between us. Not even Sophia.