hey besties lol i haven't checked on this in so longggg im so sorry for the way i hurt you guys haha so here is a make up since im not totally evil
"Let me know if there's anything wrong love." Karl softly said, and as the words left his lips, the deep aching in Sapnap's stomach seemed to slip away slowly. Karl went to stand, but Sapnap grabbed his wrist eagerly, desperately.
"There is something, something wrong," Sapnap mumbled, his eyes falling to how Karl's fingers had already natural linked with his own, he swallowed hard as he caught a glimpse of their silver rings, and grabbed everything in him to utter what he needed to say.
"I've started c-cutting. again. I'm sorry, please don't be mad, I didn't mean to," He rambled, but was cut off by Karl's sudden hug and kiss. "I would never be mad, I never will. We're fiancee's, we're allowed to tell eachother things, so thank you for telling me."
Sapnap felt tears well easily, dripping off long lashes and onto Karl's hoodie. He collapsed into sobs and Karl upheld him, kissing the top of his head and soothing his shaking body. His mind was yelling at him louder than before, how awful he was, how he never should've told anything, how everything would be ruined, and Sapnap squinted, wincing at the screaming, cutting words. Karl felt the sudden change in Sapnap's movements, and started softly humming their song into his ear, rocking back and forth.
Sapnap's thoughts halted before yelling again, but their words and volume lost their power as he focused on the soft melody of their song, and how his lovely fiance was holding him, and contrary to the taunting thoughts, Karl wasn't upset. Karl was right there, still loving him evermore. His whole being was obsessed with the love he felt for this man, and how fucking lucky he was.
"Goddamn lucky," Sapnap murmured, to which Karl asked him to clarify. "I'm so lucky to have you. You complete me." Karl pulled Sapnap off his tear-stained shoulder, and as their eyes met, Sapnap saw how truly happy Karl felt, the way his eyes glinted and glimmered through terrified tears, the dimples and freckles that danced through his smile, and how Karl shook his head, making his endlessly fluffy hair dance.
"I'm the lucky one. Truly." Karl kissed him softly, their lips perfectly molding as their hands intertwined. Karl pulled away for a moment, lifting up Sapnap's bloodied arm. "Let's take care of this, we wouldn't want it to mess up your lovely suit." Sapnap nodded in agreement, and wincing through the pain as Karl walked them over to clean it. Sapnap felt his stomach drop at the sight of the razor and the pill bottle he was so close to using, and Karl matched his gaze perfectly. He grasped the objects and jammed them into his pockets, "Let's not spend any more time or effort with these." Sapnap silently agreed, the voices becoming close to silent as all the scary reminders and temptations melted at the point of Karl's soothing manner. "In fact, lets spend the rest of all the time together. To make sure we're safe." Sapnap smiled and half hardheartedly chuckled before resting his lips and body against his perfect safety.
~~timeskip cause im funky~~
"I do." Sapnap's voice quavered as his tears rolled down sloppily, meeting Karl's unmovable smile as the priest said vows that they really should be paying more attention to then they were, as they stared at each other with such love and devotion. They crashed their lips together as they always have, but this kiss rung with the ties of marital bonds, and how they were husbands. Sapnap mentally wondered whose last name they would take as he molded into Karl's figure, the dress curving around the both of them as they moved happily together, the friends congratulations and cheers nothing more than ambiance. Sapnap is unbelievably grateful, not only for his love, but for the fact that he was able to ask for help. For which without, he wouldn't have been able to be on this alter, standing in his slick tux with a tie coordinated with Karl's gown, Dream and Quackity cheering and congratulating them, the realization that this wasn't the end of anything, but merely the beginning. The beginning of their future. One cannot begin to imagine, without knowing what its like to look at one person, and see their whole entire world.
It was beautiful to know that Karl was going to be his pillar forever, and that they had so much more to live through, together. With eachother, Sapnap was sure that everything was going to be okay.
BONUS #2
"Happy birthday to you, happy birthday to you, happy birthday to Parker, happy birthday to you!" Karl and Sapnap sang happily as they clapped, their young son slowly clapping along as best as a 1 year old can. Parker smiled at how his dads cheered, and giggled while saying "Papa, Daddy!" They both hugged him, and encouraged him to blow out the candle, which he did by sloppily spitting over it. They laughed along with their beautiful baby boy, kissing his soft cheeks and marveling over his perfectly emerald eyes, and his brown fluffy hair that was nothing less than similar to Karl's. They picked him up and cooed at how adorable he was, and Parker happily nuzzled into their hold, giving them a big kiss each. "Crazy, huh? About 3 years ago, we got married, right?" Karl asked, and Sapnap nodded happily, tickling Parker's small feet that kicked as he laughed. "Crazy how every day with you gets infinitely better. And it always will." Karl smiled happily as he leaned over and they shared a kiss that felt perfect for the moment. Concise but filled with their love that wasn't ending anytime soon.
"I love you so much."
Yayyy! I hope you guys enjoyed the decent ending!
But seriously, if any of you guys are feeling suicidal or like you are alone or worthless, please contact a medical professional, or someone you trust. You are worth living, never doubt that. I love you for what it counts. Hell, if you need to, you can always talk to me. Not to brag, but I'm a great listener. ( teddy??#1147- discord )
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Hotlines are always available, confidential, nationwide, and free. You aren't a burden to call. If you don't want to call, you can chat with someone at:
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Call 911 if you or someone you know is attempting to, planning, or actively committing suicide.
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Please don't be afraid to ask for help, because that is the bravest thing you can do.
As always, please take good care of yourselves, eat and sleep well, know that you are so cool and loved, and I hope you enjoyed this bonus.
I love you all so much.
<3 Teddy
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Should've Never Said It Back
FanfictionSapnap and Karl are dating, and madly in love. They do so much together. They are perfect. But life isn't perfect. life doesn't want them to be perfect.
