Im not ok.. I promise :)
No im fine
Really
Well thats what i say,i cant tell anybody bc i have to keep it to myself,i cant burden them with it
And you know,i wouldve been fine..but my parents keep adding onto it becaysw of bad grades..
And yk i cant do this anymore
Exams are coming in hot
I almost texted my teacher but shes also got some problems right now so i cant..n idk who replaces her and idk what to do,im panicking i just
I cant
But hey ill be fine
Ill be okay
dont worry
Is what i say,trying to convince myself aswell,you know
But im not bothering anyone by typing this,you guys read it on free will,so i dont have to put up the fine front..
Tho i still feel like i do
I still feel like i have to act okay
Because i always worry,what if i subconciously am faking it,what if im faking it all,but unaware of it myself
My feelings arent valid,im just an attention whore.. I just want attention.. So i should just suck it up
U dont want people to hate u for faking and asking attention,suck.it.up..
I havent cried in a long time...
I push people away because im convinced thats whats better for them
I push the people i love away,or put up a happy front
But somethimes it gets too much..n then the bubble bursts..
I found a new way to self harm :) ..which is positive,or negative,whatever you'll take
YOU ARE READING
my diary
RandomWarning,this may containt triggering stuff,idk I just write how i feel,dont take this personally Its my way to get it out without bothering someone..somethimes idk who to talk to..so i come here..
