Hello hello.. Where back..
I guess itll never end
God why does it never end
I just want to be okay..
Why doesnt ir
Why
Why
Why am i not good enough?
Why cant i just find the right guy
Why dont they love me
Sure they say they do but this isnt love
And i know "If you want love, you gon' have to go through the pain
If you want love, you gon' have to learn how to change
If you want trust, you gon' have to give some away" -nf
..but ive been swallowing so much,ive been hiding so many things behind a 'he'll learn" "its his first relationship" "its okay"
Its not
And at first everythinfs fine
But its been a year
And he just gets worse
And i want it to work out so badly.. But its shattering me
Why cant he just be a normal human being
Why must he be so bipolar and ignorant
It hurts so bad
So bad
But i love him so much
And that makes it hurt even more
I just want to kill myself
Thankyou for listening
As always
I love you
YOU ARE READING
my diary
RandomWarning,this may containt triggering stuff,idk I just write how i feel,dont take this personally Its my way to get it out without bothering someone..somethimes idk who to talk to..so i come here..
