Here we go again...
Or for the meme ppl out there
Awh shit,here we go again
Welll
GUESS WHOSE BACK
Altough ive had alot of fall backs..i didnt struggle with not knowing who to tell and wanting. Tell but not to worry someone.. But guess that came back too..
I also know i got rid of the other chapters.mbut i will put them up again,its just i hurt a person in my life that is still there and i apologize but at that time..thats how i felt about them
Now i know ,ur probably here for the story..for my feels..
And sadly..all i can say is..i feel unwanted..not by my dad,because that wouldnt be a surprise.. But by my mom.. I..i honestly get so depressed..and i had a bad relationschip..well.it was good..but the last month or two from it he just made me depressed.. Im crying rn while writing this so i mean.. Im not lying.. God idont even know what to say,i had one of those crazy period stories again,if any of you know,i have severe period pains where i get special pills for.. That somethimes dont work..and when they dont.. I get symptoms from periods like puking,my sight going white or slowly white,fainting or not being able to stand because my legs give out and other stuff. So that was fun
Yup now im out of words..i only know i wanna cry my eyes out,i wanna scream.. I want to cut..my chest feels like its tightening and i cant do shit about it.. I just feel so unwanted,not only at home..but at school too..in my class..in this world.. I should probably stop crying and writing and just go cut,thanks for those who read my problems,thanks for those who care,thanks for those who leave nice comments ,thanks to those who read a part,and then think its uninteresting,because thanks for atleast giving it a chance,thanks to those who stayed.. After.. This.. Year ? Or so pauze.. Thank you.. Im honestly so gratefull for this platform,the nice people and amazing books to get my thoughs away
To anyone who reads this
I LOVE YOU,you matter,if no one cares,guesss what,i do,im always there for you guys u can ALWAYS text me,im always free,im always down to listen and try give advice,i dont mind,i love helping people,u wont bother me,id love to listen and help,maybe give u a comforting virtual hug,or irl if u live closeby😂 but still,im here,ill always be here,dont be afraid to text me,everyones going trough shit
YOU ARE READING
my diary
RandomWarning,this may containt triggering stuff,idk I just write how i feel,dont take this personally Its my way to get it out without bothering someone..somethimes idk who to talk to..so i come here..
