Firstoff
Happy mothers day yall,i hope youre mothers are being loved and appreciated extra today n are happy
Sadly..im not
He... Got mad again.. These last few days hes been ignoring me,constantly gaming,wanting time with friends and saying i dont want him to be happy
He also refers to me as 'studying" he didnt want to call bc im studying n he wants free time.. Hes hurting me so much ,he was good this morning..said he was better again..but then breakfast came up n he tells me he doesnt eat,he drinks 8cokes a day and yesterday only had 1real meal and that obviously worries me but he doesnt give a fuck..i made up a text,i sended him this "Hy,sorry voor te storen maar blijkbaar drinkt renzo 8pepsi's per dag,ik weet niet of dat waar is maar dit is wat hij mij zei en das nie echt gezond,want hij eet dan ook sochtends nooit en zijn tanden hebben een geele schijn en kwwetnie of het daardoor komt.of nie (nie da mij da stoort) ma zijn eetgewoontes zijn gewoon echt zo ongezond en da baart mij wel zorgen" its dutch so feel free too google translate..im sorry im not in the mood for that rn,i asked if i should send this to his mom,because his eating habits are seriously worrying me,as his gf,yeah,w egot back together because i love him so much i cant live without him
One of my friends told me"i wonder how fae you'll go,i wonder when you will stop" n sadly i had to tell them ill probably keep going till i break...they thought normal break but idk if they know i meant the moment i feel so umwanted unloved and hated that ill kill myself because he will bring me to that moment
So im sorry if one day im gone,i love you all and thank you for being here,and listening to my story..it means alot to me❤
Ill leave you at that,have a nice day❤
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my diary
RandomWarning,this may containt triggering stuff,idk I just write how i feel,dont take this personally Its my way to get it out without bothering someone..somethimes idk who to talk to..so i come here..
