suicidal but a meme idol

i understand you more

I dont have many friends. I could count them all on one hand and even then I'd have space to fill. However, I have had a friend since that start of uni. 2019, O-week at the university I am studying at. We went to the same seminars and intro days and we actually met then. we caught the bus and funnily enough had one class together. from there we had other friends join. we used to have weekly movie nights. drink ups. it wasnt until one of our friends got a boyfriend who is essential the hardin of boyfriends. we began to not have classes all with each other and started to disconnect. some friends came and some friends left. but we both stayed. we have been best friends since day-dot. we've gone out together, had drinks, talked shit and generally have the same interests. we have never spoken bad about each other. we have honest and open relationship and if we need to speak up then we do. sometimes we bicker, but that's what friends do. i'd do anything for her. she'll always have a place in my heart. we're both closed off people, but i found soemthing out that i relate more to her. she write like i do. silly metaphors of existential crisis' we both have to try and be more literary. it's nice. to know that i'm not being cringe oir dramatic. it's nice to feel that i have her to talk to about this shit. that she'll always understand and give it to me straight. she's just a hoot. if i ever get married, she'd be my maid of honor. or maybe the god mother. haven't figured that out. but she's a damn good friend. she's my best friend. and again, i'd do anything for her.