Solace Escape

Kabanata 10

Kabanata 10 (New Version)

Opening yourself and heart to someone is scary. Once you opened the door and let them in, it's either they would empower you or find your weakness and greatest fear to destroy you.

Letting anyone in and showing them your vulnerable side is like stripping yourself bare, letting them see you naked. Letting them see every flaw you had leaving you only praying they won't use it against you.

To show your weakness to someone's the same thing as showing them your scars. Am I up for it? Am I ready?

I'm occasionally dreaming of that certain horrible dream but I never expected having it the same night I opened a part of me to someone and I hated to admit but it scared the hell out of me.

Why the hell did I let my guard down? Am I getting crazy? Maybe this province lured me into peace that never existed. I was naïve.

Mas lalong hindi pa gumanda ang mood ko nang umagang-umaga ay tumatawag na sa group chat ang mga kaibigang naiwan ko sa Maynila. For days, I rarely answer them for my peace of mind and silence but they messaged me, asking if I'm avoiding them.

Kinuha ang phone at binuksan ang group chat namin nina Leah at Mila na punong-puno ng tsismis at pang-aasar sa pag-ayaw ko sa dare nitong una.

Mas kumunot ang noo ko sa mga nabasang pang-aasar.

Mila: Come on, Sib! You've really fallen for him, huh?

Leah: I bet!

Sibyl: The hell, of course not! Not my taste! Ayoko lang. That's so childish and we weren't kids.

Mila: Okay! Okay lang 'yan, naiintindihan naming ayaw mo kasi nga gusto mo talaga siya.

Sibyl: I said no!

Leah: Oo ka na kasi, KJ mo naman! Mila and I are really convinced now, you fancy him!

Mila: If she said no, then it's true. She likes that probinsiyano! Tignan mo!

Sibyl: I said no! Why would I even waste my time with this? This is nonsense.

Mila: Woah! Chill there, Sib! Haha! I understand, well, sino ba namang gustong magmukhang loser? Tatanggi ka na lang s'yempre.

"What the fuck..." I cursed under my breath, my lips pursing in annoyance.

Leah: Opps! 🤣🤣🤣

Hindi na ako sumagot doon dahil nakakairita pero ngayong ganito ang nararamdaman ay parang sasabog ang utak ko at dali-dali ako nagtipa ng reply.

Sibyl: Okay, okay! I told you I am not but to stop you two from bickering then I'm in. Let's bet.

Wala ako sa mood umagang-umaga pa lang.

"Good morning, señorita!" maligaya at buhay na buhay na bati sa akin ni Mary.

I just stared at her.

"May breakfast na po, nagluto si Sol kanina," aniya sabay turo sa kitchen.

Pagbaba ko pa lang ay amoy na amoy na ang pagkain pero iniiwas ko ang tingin sa kanya at nagkibit-balikat.

"No thanks. I'm not hungry." Malamig kong sabi sabay lakad paalis pero humabol siya kaagad.

"Señorita? Hala, kumain po kayo. Bilin din nila Sir Jer na h'wag kang pagutuman. Atsaka nagluto po si Sol—"

"I said no, why are you so loud?" I snapped. Her mouth parted. "If you wanted to eat because sayang then eat! Ayokong paulit-ulit at hindi ako bingi."

"A-Ah... sorry po..." lumunok siya't nagbaba ng tingin.