Its crazy how your mood gets changed upside down in just a little paragraph. Its funny how people wanna play the victim but in reality there the cause of the problem. Its hard to be a dreamer when your stuck in the dark.
You want to fly high into the clouds were all the people that are the happy dreamers but there's always that dark, cold, and ugly person just standing in your way making sure you don't dream at all. The dream cloud they touch it and it just turns dark and gloomy.
Pouring out ashes of your happiness. Bleeding out all of your fears and cries. Your getting tired and weak from all that crying and screaming. All you want to do its just fade but there's always something trying to pull you back. You wanna just get away and live your dreams of becoming happy but its just not working.
Why won't it work. Why can't I live and then you look back and there it is. Your fears and things that are pulling you back making sure you don't get what you want. Their screaming at you telling you that you can't be who you want to be.
Its hurts wanting to be the person that wants the person that you want to show the world of who you are and they just shut you down.
It hurts feeling like your not worth it just because of the things you wear. Your not pretty enough if you don't have make up caked on your face. Guess natural beauty isn't the best beauty. Your not cool enough if you don't have uncomfortable shoes. Guess were better off with soar feet then.
Its bitter sweet having to feel that you think you just might have been with it but your just shut down because you don't look anything like them. But its really funny because when you do try to be them they get mad that you wanna be them.
So it just hurts because you don't know what to do to fit it or just be yourself...
