I love the feeling of having the music just fly threw my bones. I love having the feeling of happiness creep threw my fingertips. It's amazing having the power to have the music just make me wanna move my body against the rhythm. It helps me at one with my inner self.
Its an amazing feeling to know that I'm starting to actually be happy with myself. Its great knowing that I can do something I love and not care what anyone thinks and that's making music. I live feeling the strings of that acoustic guitar against my finger tips. Feeling the sound of my voice slip threw my lips and having emotion in them. Not just sad emotions but happy emotions.
Not many people know that I love to do this but I'm starting to want to come out and be truly happy and honest with myself and also others. This feeling that's going on inside my body is something I havent felt in what feels like forever. I don't want this feeling to go away at all I love this feeling and I'm going to make sure that I keep this feeling no matter what anyone says.
People may try to knock me down as soon as they see me happy. But I'm going to do what I was learned to do and what I should have don't a long time ago and that's just to simply smile in their face and say "You can't break me" because they may be doing that because they aren't happy. I feel bad for people that feel the need to make other people upset just because they aren't happy with themselves. Its very sad and I wish they would ask for help because I would love to do that for people.
I know I may seem like a very depressing person but I want people to know that they aren't alone in this world. That there is people out there that know how they feel and that's something that I didn't have when I was going threw depression I still have it but I actually talk to people about how I feel. I want to help people out and show them that depression isn't going to eat them alive.
There is always something that will make you happy when you are upset and that's something is positive its just some people don't try to find out what that something is because they go to cutting or something negative. That's how I use to be but then I realized music saves me, making music saves me and I love it. Music isn't the only thing the only thing that can help people. Things like cooking, cleaning, and many other things I just hope some people find their way to something positive before it's to late because I know I was like that before.
