CODE'S ADDICTION

Chapter 7

Warning: Sensitive topic ahead!

Trissalia Pearl

Mistakes doesn't define us; that's what everyone tells us. But in my opinion, it was all hoax. Bad decisions are the reflection of our reckless personality, it therefore defines us. Our decision affects our future kaya't kung pinili mo ang bugso ng damdamin mo ngayon at hayaang puso lamang ang paganahin, then wait for the unexpected outcome. I'm not saying it's a worst thing but I didn't say either that it is not a bad thing.

I'm not a wisdom guru or whatsoever but if you're going to ask me whether I pity those who gets pregnant at the early age or being a poor, I tell you I don't. I do help them but that doesn't mean I share empathy with them, no sugarcoating. First of all, hindi na kasalanan ng magulang kung ang anak ay mabuntis ng maaga, kulang man sa pangaral o hindi. Why? The school and government never stopped educating us about pre-marital sex, the consequences of being a teenage parent. Maybe some take it as a blessing but honestly, it really is not. Some may even say they're doing it as rebellion against their parents, tell you what: the best revenge is to make them realize that you are finer without their help by putting yourself in a higher and comfortable position in life, by accomplishing your dreams. Someday, these young parents will realize their mistakes when they find that they lack something from their life, the real enjoyment of being a teenager.

And for the poor, I don't understand why they always blame the system when in fact we are the system itself. Tayo ang gumagawa ng sistema sa buhay natin. You could blame the government for lacking of response when it comes to poverty but at the same time, blame yourself for not making a good decision in life. For not taking every smart and huge steps in life. Sa mundo ngayon, hindi na sapat ang pagiging masipag lang. And besides, there are so many ways, many options but if you're just gonna look at one thing; looking forward at success without looking at the ladder, then expect that you'll forever stumble in life.

Ginusto mo 'yan kaya panindigan mo, ika nga nila. Ang lahat ng gawin natin, mapa-tama man o mali ay repleksyon ng ating katauhan. Natural bang magkamali? Of course, but what is not natural is when you keep on committing the same mistake, or not changing the flow of your life. We are the master of our own. So, whenever we decide, we commit.

"I am planning to study law school, what do you think?" Ulysses reaches his hand to give me the cup of coffee. I willingly took it. It's early in the morning yet the breeze of air is colder than before, indicating that the rainy season is coming.

Pinagdaupang-palad ko ang aking mga kamay upang kulungin ang init sa aking palad. "What made you decide to study law?"

Ulysses smiles at me before tracking the window where the ipil-ipil leaves effortlessly dances with the wind.

"I want to give hope to other people. I want to protect them. I want to give justice to those people who are aggravated."

There was fire lit in his eyes. I could sense deep dedication and compassion. Ayokong sirain ang pangarap na nagpapatatag sa kagustuhan niya.

However, that's not how really it goes.

The words he said...that was the exact thing I said before but look at me now, I am far from what it supposed to be.

"Do you think panelists will believe you in that?" Ngumisi ako.

He looks at me confusingly. "Bakit naman hindi? Hindi ba't 'yun naman ang dahilan kung bakit kayo nagiging abogado?"