aromantic. ~ b.e story

chapter twenty eight

BILLIE

i didn't realize i fell asleep until i woke up.
i feel the spot josh's supposed to be sleeping in but i don't feel him in it, so i open the bedside lamp and pick up my phone. 3:24 AM. damn, why wouldn't he be in bed this late???

i slouch as i get up, my body tired and hurting from all the sickness. i turn on my phones flashlight and walked into the guest room, josh wasn't there but i spotted amala and nia knocked out on the bed. i silently shut the door and walked into the living room to see a tired derrick and damon sleeping on the couch, slumped.

i look on the other couch in the corner of the living room to see a set of 6 smoked blunts on the table and josh and taurus smoking. my heart shattered and my mind was collapsing. i was mad.

i walk over and put my flashlight onto josh seeing his eyes bloodshot red.

"WHAT THE FUCK JOSH" i screamed, waking derrick and damon.

i smacked the blunt out of his hand and threw it across the room. "yo what the hell is wrong with you?" he scoffed.

"no josh! what the hell is wrong with YOU!?" i yelled. he stood up and faced me.

"billie get the fuck out, i don't want to speak to you right now." he said dryly.

"no you son of a bitch! you don't fucking listen josh, i told you i don't like seeing you smoke and you continue to do it WHILE IM ASLEEP." i slightly shouted.

he started laughing, the hell?

"billie I KNOW damn fucking well you're not telling me that I DONT FUCKING LISTEN, and who the HELL are you calling a bitch? when have i ever called you out of your name billie? tell me. because last time i checked you're the one who doesn't want to take a fucking pregnancy test, because i know you know that YOU don't listen." josh spat.

this is all about that fucking pregnancy test isnt it.

i hear the guest room doors open and nia and amala walk out shocked and watch our argument.

"have you ever considered that i maybe just DON'T WANT TO TAKE IT?" i yelled.

"IF YOU DONT WANT TO FUCKING TAKE IT THEN WHY SHOULD I STOP SMOKING FOR YOUR PLEASURE BILLIE?" josh shouted.

no way he's being fucking serious right now.

i grabbed the vase on the table and smashed it onto the floor. "YOU MAKE ME FUCKING SICK JOSH." i swore.

"you don't fucking mean that." he said dryly.

"are you seriously mad because of a pregnancy test josh?" i said acting calm, when deep down i wasn't.

"YES BILLIE, FUCK! why do you think im smoking blunts at 4AM IN THE FUCKING MORNING? I AM STRESSED BILLIE. you can't do one thing for me, but it always has to go the way you want it!" josh yelled as taurus flinched.

"WHY DO YOU THINK YOUR FRIENDS TOLD YOU TO TAKE THAT FUCKING TEST? DO YOU SERIOUSLY WANT TO NOT TAKE THE TEST AND END UP WITH A FUCKING BABY THAT YOU MIGHT NOT EVEN WANT?" josh continued to yell.

my eyes were starting to sting.

"do you even care?" he said as his voice cracked, almost about to cry.

"i do i-" i started until josh cut me off.

"save it, just leave billie. i don't want to see your face right now." he said dryly as he wiped a tear that fell from his face.

"josh im so-"

"leave billie!" he semi shouted, i walked towards the door and left. as soon as i got behind that door i sobbed my way back to my dorm.