Elle: New music is on the way
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Dancing is something that I really enjoy so when I was told that one of my music videos would purely be me dancing in an empty room, I was pretty excited. I worked with a choreographer who previously worked with Madonna so you get a lot 90s Madonna vibes along with ballet which I believe is a beautiful form of dance.
Kylie set me up with one of her videographers and we spent fours shooting the entire music video in the room. There was only four of us on set but it was also the best time because I was able to just release everything that I've been holding in.
"I was hoping to see the second cutest girl in the world, Serenity." Kylie gives me a look while sipping on her smoothie. "Where is she at? Is she with the baby daddy?"
"Juan's mum and sister are in town so they're having their little family day while I work." I pick up my smoothie before taking a small sip as we sit in her car. "I'm not ready to go back home."
Kylie smiles sadly, "I know."
"His family have sent me comforting messages during this whole situation but I'm just not ready to face them." I sigh. "There's a lot of pressure on me to make a decision on what happens with our family but I genuinely want to take things slow."
"That's understandable." Kylie chews on the inside of her cheek. "I'm not going to tell you what to do but you need make that man fear you, I don't want to see you end up in a Khloe situation."
"I don't want to end up in a Khloe situation." I take a long sip of my smoothie. "When I first met Juan all those years ago, I was in such a bad place in my life but he was so patient with me as I tried to get my life together. I barely had any friends, I was ruining my life with the excessive partying but he got me right and he became my reason for being... all because he cared."
Kylie wipes a few tears away, "You guys have such a beautiful history together and I hate to see you guys like this."
"I blamed myself for not being the woman that he married but life changes as you get older. We got married, had a child and created what I thought was a beautiful family life." I smile sadly while fighting back tears. "Shits tough but I have to move forward as an individual."