Elle Lex

Chapter 10

Elle: You're turning me cruel cause I'm just wanting you to #React

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Juan's POV

Since Elle is busy doing Carpool Karaoke with Luxe and James Corden, I am left looking after our daughter. Serenity is a very chill baby so I don't mind spending any time with her and sometimes it just doesn't feel real. 

Before I met Elle, I was a total playboy and now I am married with a child. Elle now wants us to move house and we have found a really nice house but the problem is that we don't have a garden which I am not not happy about. 

I want my daughter to grow up, running around on the grass and going crazy in the privacy of our own home. I brought this up to Elle and we did go view a home this morning before she went to work but it's even more expensive than the Newport Beach home.

"Buenos dias." I cut Jose off by pulling him in for a hug. "My brother. Where's the baby?"

"Sleeping." I say as I gesture to the pram that I am pushing around the house. "She kept staring at me so I put her in and started pushing her around until she fell asleep."

Jose just laughs as he enters my home with his son, Cristian who is just looking at me with a blank look on his face.

"Bebe." I grab a hold of Cristian and I hug him. What most people don't know is that Cristian is actually my God son. My brother, Jose gave me the huge honor of being his child's godfather after he was born. 

"Mmmm." Cristian mumbles as he lifts his hands up to his dad. We both laugh as I hand him back over to his father and shut the front door. 

"How have things been going with Kandice?" I ask as I start pushing the pram in the direction of the garden. I know that I will have to mop the house before Elle comes back because she will kill me if she knew that I was using the pram in the house.

Jose kisses his teeth as he slides open the double french doors. 

"She's seeing somebody new." He rolls his eyes. "That basketball player, Jack Griffin."

I hold back a laugh knowing that he fucked up the name on purpose. I don't mention the fact that Blake was at the performance a couple of days ago because I don't want to hurt my brother.

"Are you jealous?" I ask as I push the pram into the garden.

"Fuck yeah." Jose curses in Spanish.

"You divorced her and you have a new girlfriend." I say to him and he says nothing as he cuddles his son to his chest.

"I'm lost man." He confesses. "The only reason why I stay is because of my son. Without Cristian, there is no me."

I furrow my brows at him as we get seated by the chairs. 

"What are you talking about?" I ask we switch to our native tongue so that his son won't understand. Jose puts Peppa pig on his phone so that his son will stay occupied.

"I wanted to die man." Jose fights back tears. "I don't know what's wrong in my head, everything is wrong. I love my Kandice and I try to put her first but my demons kept getting to me. I only wanted to divorce her to protect her."

"Protect her from what?" I lean forward but I lean back once I realise that I haven't put the brakes on the pram so I quickly do that.

"I didn't want to hurt her." He says and I move to sit besides him, throwing my arm over him in a comforting manner. "I was going to attempt suicide."

 "Jose." My heart drops.

"I wanted her to hate me so that when I was gone, she would forget me quicker." He adjusts Cristian on his lap. "I wanted to so many times but I was selfish, I was married and I was set to have a son. I couldn't leave the little man behind."

"But why?" A tear rolls down my face. "Why my brother?"

"This life can be too much." He shakes his head as he looks away. "We live this life trying to please everyone but it is never enough. We constantly work, work, work until we have nothing to give. We are always competing to be the best and it is draining. Some days I don't want to get out of bed because I know that my day is not for me, it's for somebody else."

I rest my head on his shoulder.

"You need to tell me these things Jose, we are brothers." I clench my fist, knowing that my brother has been hurting this whole time. "I never want to lose you and I may be selfish but I love you. I don't know what life would be without you."

Jose breaks down in tears and my heart breaks even more.

"I just want my life back." He wipes away his tears. "I've been so depressed ever since the boating accident. Some days I wished that i died then so I could save Kandice the heart ache."

"She loves you so much." I tell him as Cristian looks back at his cry dad. "This boy loves you so much and that's why you need to fight. You need to fight for your family."

Cristian moves himself and wraps his arms around his father's neck. He bury his head in his father's neck and I know that this is the comfort that he needs right now.

"Make things right with Kandice and tell her the truth for once." Jose looks at me. "Make things right with your wife and you fight for your family, you fight for your life. You deserve life, you deserve to live and you deserve to be the greatest that there ever was."

Jose nods his head.

"Never give up." I tell him as I look over at my sleeping daughter. "This life isn't just about us, it's about them. We live for ourselves but now we live for our children too."