I Won't Mind - Ziam (major editing)

Chapter 3

Zayn's POV

I feel a warm big hand on my cheek, stroking slowly. I hum quietly at the nice feeling from that touch. "Zayn,"

I shuffle a little, leaning my cheek to the hand that keeps stroking so gently. "I made us breakfast,"

I flutter my eyes open slowly, looking at the guy in front of me. He was not lying when he promised to stay until the next morning. I'm feeling warm and happy. "You were staying,"

"I promised you and I wanted to" he smiles.

This is how to start a day. He knows how to make me feel safe, feel wanted. I smile and getting up from my bed. He wrap his long arm around my shoulders and walk us downstairs to the dining room.

We eat our breakfast in silent. I catch him staring and it makes me blush. I keep looking down on my food but I know he's staring at me.

"You're still beautiful as the last time,"

I'm choking right when I hear him, he chuckles before getting up from the chair and give me a drink. I'm gulping the water in hurry. He rubs my back up and down. "Slow down"

I put the glass down on the table. I'm coughing. He gets down on his knees beside me, same eye level as me. He puts my hand in his, holding it and rubbing my knuckle. I look at him with wide eyes and lips parted. I really don't know to react at this situation. Did he just say that I'm beautiful? Well, many people call me like that but it feels different when it comes to Liam. It's just like, he meant it.

He smiles sweetly at me, bringing my hand to his lips and kiss my knuckle softly. My heartbeat is getting faster and it goes wild. My mind is spinning. I like the way he treated me like this. But sadly, we're not having each other. I am not his, and he is not mine.

"You are still in love with me, right?" he asks me and I can hear a worry in his voice.

Instead of answering, I nod my head slowly. I bite my lip to hold the words back so I won't say anything wrong to him.

"I actually would like to have you as mine, Zayn" he rubs my knuckle again in circle. "But I can't."

I keep chewing on my bottom lip. I want to say something, so many words in my mind to put into a good question or even an answer. I look down at our hands, before releasing my lip. "We can, someday"

He darts his eyes at me, staring deep. "I really want to ask you to be my boyfriend like, right now"

I giggle quietly and shortly.

"Zayn Malik, would you like to be my boyfriend?"

He wasn't kidding. It wasn't a joke. I let out a quiet gasp and I stare at him in shock.

"I know we can't tell it to public, maybe we'll go for a backstreet relationship, kind of. But at least you are mine and I'm yours"

I get my head dizzier at his words. It feels like he can read my thoughts, in fact he can't! "What if we caught? Liam, I don't want to ruin your career and-"

"I don't care," he squeezes my hand tightly, trying to make me to trust him that I won't fail him if we get into a relationship. "I love you and I'm dying to ask you for this since a long time ago."

"I love you too.."

"Please be mine, Zayn"

I take a deep breath, "don't you think it is too soon?, I'm afraid I will fail you, fail us"

"I'm the one who should be afraid," he sighs, "and this is not too soon for me because we've known each other for almost five years. It's been so long."

"I.. really want to be yours, Liam. But I think I need more time alone since, you know, I've been a lot of dramas"

He looks up at me with apologizing eyes, I know he feels terrible for everything I have been through. Thankfully he understands, he doesn't mad at me for rejecting him. Not that I don't want to be his boyfriend. I really want to and I've been waiting for this time to come around. But for now, it's all seem wrong to be happy even if it's only for once. I just, afraid to be happy.

"I know, Zayn. I'm sorry but I will wait for you forever even longer, alright?"

I nod, "same here.."

He smiles and kiss my knuckle once again before getting up from where he kneeled on. "Just remember we will always feel the same way?"

I smile, "promise."

"You're not going anywhere like? I'm afraid I will lose you one day where you change your number and turn into a stranger" he says.

I giggle, "I won't, I will always want you to be my side so no worries"

He smiles once again, "my heart and I will always be right next to your heart and you even if distance keeps us away, Zayn"

"Right next to you, Liam."