I Won't Mind - Ziam (major editing)

Chapter 12

Zayn's Pov

"I think I want to come out."

Is all what I hear, coming straight from the cellphone I've been held, down to my heart. Does he ever thought about what will happen if he comes out? It'll ruin his career! All of the lads'! And the band. I don't want to ruin anyone's reputation.

"Liam,"

"No, Zayn. I really want to come out. I'm tired to always hold everything back, to hide my feelings. I want to show it off. I need to come out."

"B-but, have you-"

"Help me, Zayn."

I gulp hard, and thick. Worries are rushing over me. He means it. He does mean it. He sounds serious, but no, he is serious. Everything's spinning. I drop myself to my bed. Feeling like there's no bones in me.

I don't want to cause a trouble. I don't want them to fire him. I don't want to ruin anything about the band because I already ruined fans' feelings about me. With me leaving the band, is enough to bring people down. They don't need another heartless misery.

"You better forget about me, Liam." I manage to say, even though I don't mean it. "Find a girl or date Sophia properly. Just forget about me. I don't deserve you."

"You don't understand." He spats.

"I do, I do understand." I run my fingers in my hair, gripping tightly. "It's just, it doesn't right. It is so wrong."

"You love me."

I bite my lip, thinking. Yes. Yes I love him. Yes he loves me. But we can't be together. Not when everybody knows who we are. "Yes," I breathe out.

"Then why don't you want to be with me?" His voice cracks. He musts be sad, and upset. But I just can't let it happen. Now Zayn, look what you've done to him. The voice in my head's telling me.

"I want, Liam. I really want to be yours, I want to be in relationship with you. But you know what will people think about us?"

"Fuck it." I flinch at it. His voice changes, rougher this time. All I heard was anger. "Fuck with what will people think. Fuck with what will happen. I'm fucking tired and I want you. Only you." Then he ends the call. Like that.

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Liam's POV

I walk back to where I should be. Some papz are following me, taking a picture of me. Some even ask me questions. But then there is one question that leads me to the chance of coming out.

"How do you feel about Zayn leaving?"

I smirk to myself. What a chance. He waits for me. I stop walking only to answer, "I miss Zayn every single day." then start walking off.

I'm sure that'll be on the head of the line in the newspaper. So that everyone can assumes that me and Zayn are together. Not me and Sophia. Well, at least, I'm trying to tell people.

Soon I'm back with Soph, don't even bother to hold her hand because, why should I?

"Where have you been?" She asks.

"Was on the phone with Zayn." I say frankly.

"Oh." Is all she can manages. I know she doesn't really like the idea of me and Zayn. I don't know if she really takes everything seriously or she hasn't want to off yet from this ugly job.

But she knows who I truly love. She asked me once on the first time we met. She was like, "have you ever been into someone before?" And I was like, "yes, it is Zayn. Until now. That's why you are here, to cover everything." I answered simply.

Those papz are keep following me, now they're getting pictures of me and Soph. She tries to hold my hand, but I only keeping my hand away from her.

"Why?" She asks confusedly.

"Soon or later, it's gonna be over. I want to come out." I say straight forwardly.

"What??" she raises her voice.

I let out a sigh, then walking off from her, with her following behind me. Wow, Liam Payne. You're causing a scene to media then to public.