I Won't Mind - Ziam (major editing)

Chapter 23

I can't believe now all people turning their backs at me.

I mean what the heck I have done to them? I have never changed myself, they just never knew. What a shame that people these days having such short minds and immature.

I'm sick for being watched. My every little move always get negative comments. Like everything I do is wrong, though it was all a click of the button. Funny how people talk about everything you're doing.

Nobody understands me like Liam do, but we seem being in distant for right now. We're both busy and don't have time to even look at each other's eyes. I really miss him and I wonder what is he doing.

I shake my head, easing all the thoughts about him. I know I can't always think about Liam but it seems like I can't help myself because he's all I ever think about.

I honestly hoping that I can take myself back to those old good days where we were together as one. Even though people still throwing bricks at me, at least Liam was there for me. But right now I'm alone and I do really need him to be here.

Heard that they win so many things lately. I'm so proud and I bet they'll be the most successful band in the world. But I still can't over get the fact that Louis has chosen another person over me.

Well, I was just retweet-ed stuff and I know as a boyfriend he would do that for defending his girlfriend. But he does not have to say bad things to me because I wasn't the one who wrote the tweet and I'm just having the same opinion as whoever tweeted it.

He does not know anything about where did I get money. And we don't even know each other well. But I didn't give a fúck because; my account, my way to express things.

And the most dumb is, Louis on his side like I thought things between us are all cleared long time ago. But he's still decide to start a fire with me and I was surprised by that.

I know Louis has a big butt but could he just please stop butting into someone's problem? Like he has never been so problematic. I'm telling you he's better be taking care of his fans' feelings about the baby with that chick he made. Which I wasn't believe the baby is his.

But I don't know since we're all being so distant.

I'd like to ask him about what the actually hell happened but I guess I don't have too after he showed me that he's planning on calling me off his life.

I wish he could be more mature for getting over the fact that I left the band. I mean, it's been five months and even the fans are starting to accept it even though they don't know about the actual reason, not like Louis because he knows the reason I left.

But I don't want to blame him also because I'm still considering him as one of my best mates. I don't want him to walk out of my life.