5 Seconds to Love You

Chapter Twenty-three - Angelisa

Chapter Twenty-Three

*Angelisa*

It's been an exact total of twenty-four hours since I became confused on my new feelings for Luke, and it only has gotten more confusing. The way I felt when I saw him in the hallway this morning and the butterflies I felt were like no other. I walked into school and he was the first person I saw.

"Happy Birthday Angel!" He yelled loudly as everyone turned and stared. 

"Thanks Luke." I replied sort of blandly, not enjoying the staring.

"I got you a little something." He smiled and handed me a small red box and a dozen white and pink roses. 

"Awe, Luke." Was the only thing I could manage to say. I gently set my roses down in my locker and began to open the box. My eyes widened when I saw what was inside. The contents of the box was a beautiful silver necklace in the shape of two small hearts, tied together with a small diamond.

"Oh, oh my God." I stuttered out. "This, this is beautiful!" Before thinking, I threw my arms around his neck and hugged him tightly. I think it caught him by surprise a little, but he didn't argue. The feelings I had running through my bones at that moment were different than I've ever had before and while it was intimidating, I kind of liked it.

"Here let me put in on for you." Luke helped me put the necklace on, and it fell perfectly next to my angel necklace from Braden. I felt a few tears well up in my eyes at the sight before pushing them away quickly.

"Angel!" I heard a loud call from behind me after talking to Luke for a few minutes. I turned to see an excited and surprised Kat running up to me. Her eyes were full of excitement and happiness at the sight of me.

"Hey Kat." I smile. "What, what's got you so excited?" I inquired curiously, and she began jumping up and down giddily.

"Omg, Angel you look so pretty today!! Are, are you wearing makeup??" Before I had a chance to answer her, she was talking again. "Omg! You literally haven't dressed up since, well since you know..." I did know what she was talking about, and it's true. I hadn't dressed up or worn a visible amount of makeup since we lost Braden. I just haven't had the motivation to. But now, now that these feelings for Luke had arose, I felt like there was a reason to try once again.

Now I'm in my car, Kat in the passenger's seat, on our way to the band house. The guys invited Kat and Melissa along, and while Mel declined respectfully saying she had to babysit, Kat was insanely willing to come with. Typical for her though. Who knows, maybe her and the guys will get along really well. Maybe the six of us hanging out together will take my mind off of the real solemness of this day, and my confusion for Luke.

I still haven't confessed my feelings to Luke, but  I just can't find the right time. Every time I think about telling him I get this weird feeling in my stomach, and I think of Braden. I think of the two necklaces around my neck, one symbolizing Braden, the other Luke. I think about how I can't imagine being with anyone other than Braden. Honestly, I think being with Luke scares me a little. 

"So, about Luke," Kat starts, and I rapidly try to change the subject.

"Do I turn here?" I spit out spontaneously, and immediately want to smack myself in the forehead.

"Angel I literally have no idea where we are going." She laughs a little, and then realizes what I was trying to do. "Wait, wait." She pauses. "Why don't you want to talk about Luke?" 

"I, I just..." I trail off, not sure if I should tell her everything. "I mean, it's the one year anniversary of Braden's death and... And I don't know I just feel like it's wrong of me to be partying," I take one hand of the steering wheel and make air quotes around partying, "and having fun on this day." I sigh as I come up to the turn before the bands' house. I purposely don't say anything to Kat about my feelings for Luke, since she's horrible at keeping secrets.