5 Seconds to Love You

Chapter Twelve - Angelisa

Chapter Twelve 

*Angelisa*

The first thing I think when I wake up in the morning is this: I forgot the cake. 

Luke and I stayed out at the pizza place for the rest of the night, and the stupid cake completely slipped my mind. My mom is going to be /so/ mad at me. I guess I could make it after school, but I would still get yelled at for "being so irresponsible and thoughtless!" Or at least according to my mother. 

I'm suddenly startled by my phone buzzing on the night stand beside me. Who could be calling me so early on a Saturday? I reach over to grab it and slowly open my eyes. The number is unknown. I rub my eyes and answer anyways. 

"Hello?" I say groggily.

"Hey Angel? It's Luke." I'm suddenly a little more awake. 

"How'd-" 

"Kat gave me your number yesterday in Physics." He cuts me off, explaining. 

"Kaaaattt." I moan. 

"Anyway." He laughs, "I just wanted to let you know that I had fun yesterday." 

"We forgot about the cake." I mumble in response. 

"That's the other reason I called." He laughs again. "I remembered it last night once you dropped me off, so I bought some stuff and I thought we could bake it together?" 

"So you just /assumed/ that I would be free to bake today?" I joke.

"Um..." He hesitates, "yeah?" I laugh in response. 

"And also..." He trails off.

"And also what?" I prod. 

"I just, just figured some things out... About, um, about B- Braden." He stutters a little, and I feel his pain. Sometimes it's so hard to just say the simplest things. "And I wanted to talk I guess." He finishes. 

I don't respond right away, and we both sit in silence, on opposite sides off the phone. I expected it to be awkward, but it isn't. The silence seems to speak words itself. And even though it's nice, I'm the one who breaks it. 

"So I'll see you in an hour?" 

"Sure." He replies, but doesn't hang up. Neither of us do, and this time it's a little more awkward. I can hear his breaths speed up slightly, and it sounds like he's about to speak. But then he sucks in another breath, cutting the words off. 

And then he hangs up. 

*****

I jump a little when I hear the doorbell. My heart starts to beat faster, and it takes me a few seconds to make my body work. I don't know why I'm nervous, I shouldn't be right? I'm just going to bake a cake with a guy I met yesterday... Okay that does sound a little sketchy, but Luke seems like such a nice person. Yesterday when I heard him talking to Braden, I felt something I haven't felt in a long time. I felt the care of a boy, but, I don't know if I want to feel that again. Braden was the first guy I ever let into my life, the only one I've cared about, the only one I've loved, that I still love. All that love seems almost pointless now, because he can't give it back. He's gone, and even though I hate to admit it, I'll never meet someone that's like him. Maybe that's for the best, maybe I wasn't supposed to get the love of my life. It's not fair, but I can't change the past. It's just the way it is. 

But I can't let Luke in to my heart. I can't get close to someone again, I can't. What if I get broken again? What if I brake him? We're just friends, we're just friends, that's all we'll ever be.