5 Seconds to Love You

Chapter One - Angelisa

Chapter One

*Angelisa*

I lost him on the third day of the ninth month in the two-thousand and twelfth year... My birthday. I'd known him my whole life, no one knew me better. His smile could light up a whole room and he always knew what to say. If I was having an off day he would cheer me up. We were the best of friends.

Then one day I started to feel different around him. His perfect dark blue eyes started to remind me of a beautiful ocean sunset. When he smiled at me my stomach flipped. When he put his arm on my shoulder to comfort me I felt like I couldn't breath. Whenever I talked to him I tripped over my words. I started feeling more self conscious about my looks. I made sure I looked perfect for him every single morning. I couldn't even think straight around him anymore. I couldn't hold a conversation with him, sometimes I couldn't even bring myself to speak. Then, one day, he started to notice...

"Angel what's up with you?" He stopped dead in his tracks and turned around. We were walking to Dairy Queen for an after school snack and I had just tripped over my words about five times.

"What do you mean?" I managed with no stutters.

"Look I've tried not to notice, but it seems like you're scared to talk to me all of a sudden." His ocean eyes search my ordinary blue green ones and I felt myself melting.

"I, I, I," I started but he cut me off.

"See? You can't even speak a single sentence!"

"What?" I spit out.

"Look Angel, it feels like we never even talk anymore." He shifted his gaze from my eyes to the ground. Then he turned away and walked over to a bench a few feet away. I followed him with only a moments hesitation.

"We talk." I sat down next to him.

"Not like we used to! We used to tell each other everything! Did I do something wrong?"

"No!" I jumped to my feet. "No, no, no, of course not!"

"Then what happened?"

"Um..." I trailed off.

"Angel." He pleads.

I didn't answer him.

"Angel." He tries again.

I still didn't answer.

"Angel!" He practically cried. "I feel like I have no one to talk to anymore. Aren't we best friends?"

"Um" this is the moment, "well" I couldn't spit it out, "uh," I had to tell him the truth. "Braden," I sucked in a deep breath and shut my eyes tight. "Braden, I'm, I'm in love with you." I turned my head away even though my eyes were closed. I heard him stop breathing for a split second. He didn't say anything for what seemed like forever, and I was afraid I said the wrong thing. I took another deep breath and tried to hold back the tears I could feel coming. My heart was beating faster than I thought was possible. I heard him get up from the bench and take a few steps towards me. I was ready for him to laugh in my face.

"Oh Angel." He cooed as he wrapped his arms around me. I finally opened my eyes when he pulled away from the embrace to look at me. "Why didn't you tell me you felt this way?"

"I don't know, I just didn't want to ruin our friendship." I cried into his shoulder. "Please don't hate me." I whimpered.

"Oh God Angel, how could I hate you?" He shook his head. "Angel, Angel I, I feel the same way." I popped my head off his shoulder.

"You, you do?" I said between sniffs.

"Yeah." He nodded his head and held me tighter. He leaned in close and whispered, "yeah," again against my lips and proceeded to kiss me. My heart was beating even faster then, and I felt a feeling I didn't ever want to loose. I knew I was in love with him, and I knew he loved me back.

I didn't realize back then how easy everything can be taken away from you.

*****

It was a rainy day when he told me. I believe it was February 18th. It was about 2ish years ago in 2012. We had been dating for about 5 or so months. He took me to that very same park bench where I told him I loved him. He gestured for me to sit down next to him and he wrung his hands.

"Braden? Braden what's wrong?" I put my hands on his left shoulder.

"I, I have something I need to tell you," he started. "And I don't know how."

"Why don't you try by starting from the beginning?" I tried.

"Um, well... About a year ago I started feeling a sharp pain in my chest. The nurses told me it was nothing serious and sent me on my way. It stopped hurting after awhile and I assumed I had worried for no reason. But two weeks ago I started feeling it again. I, I went into the doctor and they did some tests..." He trails off.

"Braden?" I feel tears welling up in my eyes.

"There's... There's a..." He stops again and looks up at the sky while clenching his fists. "God, I can't do this!" He began to cry and I wrapped my arms around him. I felt his tense muscles loosen slightly at my touch, and he started to speak again.

"I have a malignant tumor Angel," he cried into my shoulder. "And they've caught it to late."

"No." I whimpered, as my waterfall of tears began.

I wish I could've known how little time we really had left together.

(A/N) Just to anyone that is reading this who is not a fan of me on Movellas. (btw my Movellas name is Beautifully Hemmings, so you should go fan me over there! <3) This book has so many chapters already because I have been writing it on Movellas since this summer, and just now decided to get a wattpad acount. Also there aren't any other authors notes until the last two chapters because of this same reason. Anyway I hope you all are enjoying the story so far!! <3