5 Seconds to Love You

Chapter Twenty-five - Angelisa

Chapter Twenty-Five

*Angelisa*

4/20/11

Dear Angel, 

I don't know if you'll remember this, but today was the day you told me you loved me. As more than a friend. I don't think I've ever felt such a feeling that I got when you spoke those words. I've had these feelings stored up inside of me for a while now, and knowing that you've felt them too makes me feel so many times better. I remember the first time I ever laid eyes on you. I knew that we would become close, but I never thought it could turn into something like this. You're the most beautiful, thoughtful, caring, and nice girl I have ever met, and I don't ever want to lose you because you make my life complete. I'm so glad that we've finally taken our friendship to a better, more personal and intimate level, and I will forever be grateful for today. 

This may be soon to say, so I'll just put it in writing;

I love you Angel.

Braden

2/18/12

Dear Angel,

God Dammit, this sucks. 

I haven't written you a letter in almost a full year, because I've been convinced you'll never have to read them. I've been convinced for a while now that we will grow up and I will marry you and I will be able to tell you everything and you'll never have to read it in my stupid handwritten letters.

But now my whole life is being thrown into hell, and there's no way out. 

I found out a few days ago that I have a malignant tumor on my chest wall and it's been caught too late. I have no idea how I'm going to tell you this, I can barely even write it. I'm not going to live babe, I'm not going to get to ever see you walk down the isle in a beautiful white dress and make you mine for the rest of eternity. All I've ever wanted is to live with you forever, and now I don't even know how much longer my forever is going to be. But no matter how much longer that is, I want to spend it all with you. I don't care how my last days pass, as long as you are by my side for them all. I'm going to fight for as many days with you as I can get, I know we will make the most of them.

I love you Angel. Don't lose faith.

Braden

3/13/12

Dear Angel,

I need to tell you something that hurts my heart and my head so bad that I can't handle it, alright?

The reason I started writing these letters to you, like before I got sick, was so that I could give them to you after we got married and I'd be able to show you all the stages of my love for you. So we'd have a documented record of our relationship before that step of our lives. We would read it on our honeymoon, and you'd smile that perfect smile of yours, and we'd reminisce on all those amazing moments we had together.

And now, now...

I'm not exactly sure how the rest of our time together is going to play out, but maybe we can still read these letters together, maybe we can still have a moment like what I wanted only, only different.