KISS ME ✔️

WHAT HE DESERVES

CHAPTER TWELVE: WHAT HE DESERVES

" i was into you from the beginning even if you wasn't mine "
- sza, the neptunes, pharell williams, ty dolla $ign (hit different)

I know how it feels like to be someone who gave the other person everything.

I was that girlfriend na sinabihan na clingy daw ako o samantalang nagustuhan naman niya ang lahat lahat na mga binigay ko sa kanya, tapos sabi-sabi pa siya na 'di naman daw niya hinihingi pero gamit pa rin.

It was one of the moments I had in my life that made me think better carefully in my future relationships or FUBUs na rin.

Minsan kahit na one-time thing lang yun, situationship, FUBU, o kung ano man... you end up giving something to someone and then kinikilig ka kasi may ginawa sila para sa'yo na napapaisip ka tuloy kung... may nararamdaman ba siya sa'yo o wala?

I might be cold after sex but it's a way to bring back to reality na sex lang yo'n at walang pagmamahal do'n, sex lang, it's just an activity, nothing else more.

'Di rin ako sanay na may magbigay sa'kin nang kung ano mang gusto ko kahit na 'di ko naman hinihingi.

"What... is this?"

Nanigas ako sa hawak niyang mga bulaklak at Gucci paper bag na rin.

Pawis na pawis siya pero ang gwapo pa rin talaga, naka-white tank top siya kaya kita yung mga muscles niya at pati na rin balikat at biceps niya—damn, just damn!

Napalunok pa 'ko sa kanya, kulang na lang at maglalaway na 'ko sa itsura, Brent wore something similar to this but he was never close to Ryland.

Ryland is obviously superior, duh.

"Para sa'yo, of course." ngisi niya sabay pasok sa loob ng apartment ko.

"B-Bakit? 'Di ko naman birthday?" natatawa kong sabi sa kanya pero deep inside naguguluhan pa rin ako.

"I know that. I just wanted to congratulate you."

Congratulate? Para saan?

"What? For the release of my campaign with BENCH?"

Kakarelease lang ng photoshoot at campaign na rin ng BENCH for their new set of underwear and other clothing, I was one of the few models that was featured and my face and body are mostly inside their stores this week.

Talagang nakakaproud kasi I made sure na may abs ko so extra workout just for this shoot kahit na pagod na pagod na 'ko kakaehersisyo.

"Yun din pero... congratulations kasi wala na yung sakit mo..." nguso niya at ibinaba yung bulaklak at Gucci paper bag sa may couch ko at niyakap ako nang mahigpit.

He feels so warm and comfy, I missed him so much.

Nagkasakit kasi ako tapos may trabaho rin ako pero nakeri ko naman, Ryland was worried so binibisita niya 'ko tapos hinahatid at inuuwi na rin from home to work and from work to home.

"You're the best... sweet sweet mo, you didn't have to, Ryland." bulong ko sa kanya.

He pulled away and grabbed my hand to leave a soft kiss on my knuckles without breaking the eye contact with me.

"But I want to, for you... I missed you so much, at... nililigawan pa rin kita, ba't 'di mo na lang ako sagutin, hm?" bulong pa niya at hinalikan ang noo ko.