Mirrors (The Academy)

Chapter 12: The Tiny Reminder.

The drive home it's the worst.

Kota is tense next to me, and I swear the silence has never been this loud.

I take a shaky breathe.

"It was just a kiss in the hand, Kota"

"It was not just a kiss, Sang! He wants you!"

He looks hurt and desperate.

"Kota..."

"The day I met you, I wanted to kiss every part of you. I know what that feels like"

The drive home is pain.

Later, when he drops me in my front door, we stand next to each other and don't say a word.

"It doesn't matter if he wants me. I will always be in love with you"

He closes his eyes tight and when he opens them again, he leans in to kiss me. Not one of those little kisses they were giving me to startle me, but a real one. Intense and magical.

When we break the kiss, I hugh him tight for what seemed hours. When I finally look up to see his face, he is smiling.

"I love you"

I whisper the same and then he let's me go.

Sleeping at night has become tricky. Now they're not sleepy with me I get myself way too tired so I can think about anything else but sleeping. I usually go for runs or read half a book before bed (I've read a lot lately). But tonight I don't feel like doing any of those things. Tonight I slip into my pijamas and remove the little make up I have on. And think. About the boys, about my family, and the intentions behind Derek's kiss.

I stare at the ceiling and close my eyes. When I open them again, the daylight hits my face, crossing my bedroom window. I turn around and hide my face in the pillow so I can sleep for a little while... and I do, for what feels like twenty minutes, until a change in the air wakes me up.

In be bedroom door stand Owen.

"Owen? What are you doing here?"

"I have a key" He simply says, coming in and sitting in the bed next to me.

He looks so handsome today, as always He is wearing his dark suit and black glasses that makes him look like a smart guy you want to corrump. He smiles and me, and I melt inside.

"You are just like Luke. The fact that you have a key doesn't mean you can get in whenever you like to! I asked for space. I thought you understood that, more than anyone"

"Oh, Miss Sorenson, I understand that. I also understand you swore to us you loved us, and yet, there is some... young man, trying to steal you away from us. And you defended him, as Mr.Lee gladly let us know"

I sigh, tired.

"I'm going to kill him" I mutter.

"You and I both know you are not going to do such a thing. Because you love him and he worries. And maybe he had reasons to".

"It was harmless, Owen. He just kissed my hand".

"I trust you, love. I do. But I do not like this. So I'm here to give you a tiny reminder".

I lift an eyebrow.

"A reminder of what?"

He smiles. Not his milimeter smile, but a wide, shiny one. I stare at it for a couple of seconds, completely dazed.

"Of what you have. Of what you would miss".

"What...?"

And then he kisses me sweatly... until it becomes wild and needy. His demanding lips travel down to my neck where he bites lightly and continue through my breasts...
I hadn't forgotten how this feels. Being under his body, his mouth on mine, my hands on him, tugging, kissing, licking. And I know I never will. I'll never forget, even if I want to.
His mouth leaves me and he pulls me to him so I can sit on the bed. Then pulls my blouse up and throws it at the other side of the room. He smiles again, the mischievous look on him again, on his smile, on his everything.
"Owen..."
"Did you forget, love?" He asks, pulling my shorts down with my underwear.
I shake my head, covered in a cloud of haziness now that he kisses my tummy and goes down, down, down...
"Say it, Sang"
"I didn't. I'll never..."
My breathe gets higher and comes harder, until I explode and stare at the ceiling, my hands twisting the sheets.
At last, Owen kisses my tummy before going to my lips once more. I am red from what we just did, no matter how many times we've made love the last couple of years.
"I just thought you needed to remember" He smiles, kissing me.once more before laying down next to me.
I look at him.
"Maybe I need to make you dislike things so often".
Owen laughs, and it's scandalous and honest. The kind of laugh that appears every once in a while, the one that makes this girl melt.
"Oh, love. You don't need to do anything but looking at me with those green beautiful eyes to keep me going. I'm sorry I'm always so bussy".
I kiss him once more before letting go and say:
"This doesn't change anything".
"I know, love. As I said before, I came here to give you a tiny reminder".
"Tiny?"
"Very, truly tiny"
He smiles again, then kisses my forehead and stands up.
"I love you, Sang. I hope you always remember that. If you do... I'll make you".
Then he turns around and leaves. I find strenght to stand up and gather my things to go and take my shower.
The phone rings.
"Jonathan?"
"Hi, Sang. The guys and I are going to the movies today. Wanna come? Say yes"
In the background I hear:
"Of course she'll say yes! I'm here!" From Leo. Then; "Ouch! Roman, dude why are you always hitting me?"
"Will you?" I hear Jonathan again.
"Yes. I'd like that".
"Awesome. I'll pick you up in an hour".
Later, when I'm in the middle of getting dresses, I see the book Erika lend me a couple weeks a go. I wanted to returned, but I was bussy... and now I've been evoiding her son.
I decide to put on my big girl pants (and the real, physical ones) and grab the book, crossing the street to her house. Before I knock the door, Kota asnwers it.
"Hi, Sang".
"Hi, Kota".
"You look beutiful today. Going out?"
Somewhere through the years he became bolder.
"Actually, I am".
"With yout brother?"
"And the rest of the boys. Is your mom home? I need to return this"
"She's out" He says quickly " Is that Derek boy going to be there?"
"Kota. Stop"
"I'm just asking".
"I've lear that with you guys 'just' doesn't mean 'just'. Can you give this to your mom? Tell her I'm sorry I kept it too long"
I hand him the book and he takes it without actually looking at it. I turn to leave, but his voice stops me.
"He wants to take you, you know".
"What?"
"Jonathan. In his team. He wants to take you away from us".
"That's not true. He barely knows me. He barely trusts me".
"He told me, Sang".
"When?"
"In your house. He threatened me to take you. And I told him he would only do that over my body".
I feel my heartbeat in my ears.
"You claimed...me?"
The blood burns my veins.
"Sang?" He says slowly, because he knows there is something wrong.
"You claimed me like I was a piece of meat?"
"What? Sang, no..."
"When will you learn, Kota? You keep doing this. You said you'd change , but you're still the same. I am a person. I make my own desitions. You cannot claim me like you own me!"
He steps forwards, his hand up to calm me down.
"Sang. Beautiful. You got it all wrong. It wasn't like that"
"I'm not little and helpless anymore!"
"I know! I was just jelaous!"
"You make me so mad!"
I turn to leave, but Kota walks beside me.
"Sang! Where are you going?"
"To the movies. With Derek".
Okay. Maybe I crossed a line.
And I don't care.
"Sang" He cries my name, completely broken hearted "You're breaking my heart"
I should stop. I should turn around and hold him in my arms.
I should. I should.
I don't.