Prof. Bang / / ChanLix 18+

7.

I woke up with someone holding me tightly. I closed my eyes with a slight smile. That was Chan, holding me against him. I forgot how much I loved physical affection, even if he and I weren't any type of romantic. 

Wooseok never gave me affection. He hated it.

I took a deep breath. 

Whatever I did, I couldn't fall for the way he acted towards me. I was simply a distraction, and we would keep it that way. Besides, after what Wooseok did to me, I didn't think I wanted another relationship, anyways.

I moved out of his arms and he raised up. 

"You okay?"

His morning voice was kind of cute.

 "Yeah. It's ten, and we have college at twelve."

"What do you want to do in the meantime?"

"U-Uhm... I don't know."

Maybe cuddling with him would be nice... but he wouldn't be okay with that, would he? It's worth a shot.

I turned back towards him, wrapping my arms around him. 

"Oh, am I comfortable?" He slightly chuckled. 

"S-Sorry." I started to move back. 

Maybe he wasn't okay with it. Maybe I took the sign of affection wrong. 

He instantly pulled me back into his arms. 

I wished he was Wooseok. I wish Wooseok and I were still together.

"Dont think about moving away. I don't mind holding you. I enjoy it, really."

I smiled, resting my forehead against his chest. 

I wish Wooseok would have treated me like this.

"Is there anything you want to talk about?"

"Did you love her?" I asked quietly. His chest quickly rose, then fell again. 

"I think I did. If I didn't, I wouldn't be so upset about her not being here with me."

"Yeah but... did you love her or did you just hate what she did to you?" I pulled back to look at him. "If you would have broke up in a different way, do you think you'd still be as upset?"

He seemed to think for a moment, then looked back down at me. 

"Actually... I don't know. I feel like if we had a mutual breakup, maybe I wouldn't feel so absolutely horrid about it. Her cheating on me... it just made me feel like-"

"Like you weren't good enough for her/him."  We both said at the same time, smiling at one another. 

"What about with your ex?"

"Oh... See, I don't know. As we broke up, I've realised how he didn't really treat me that good. But still, we were engaged, and I think I love him. But seeing him with someone much prettier than I am... especially since we go to the same college. Him and I enrolled in the college together, so we could be together more. I didn't think it would end up like this."

Chan just pulled me to him again, hugging me gently. 

"Some people suck... but don't let that affect your future relationships. When you find another to love, I'll be on the sidelines, cheering you on, okay?" He smiled at me when he pulled back again. "And I hope they don't treat you as bad as he did."

"I'll be there for you, too." I smiled back at him. 

I had no hope for dating again. But it was great to know I had his support.