𝑩𝒆𝒍𝒍𝒆 𝒂̂𝒎𝒆 | 𝑺𝒂𝒊𝒅𝒂

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Suho's special POV

When I asked Minatozaki Sana out on a date the first time we met at a college party, I knew my life wouldn't be the same after that.

She's perfect, honestly. You can never ask for more.

She's beautiful and smart, logical. She can be cute if she wanted to and sometimes when she doesn't even mean to be.

She is honest, sometimes brutally.

And like any other girl I've met before, Minatozaki Sana only has her eyes on me at the entire party, but something in her eyes made her stood out the most. It's like, inside of those orbs, there are a whole universe waiting to be discovered. And I can't just wait for it to happen.

My parents love her. They adored her so much to the point that they wanted to see her everyday when I visit them, and so they're so happy when I told them that we're engaged.

It was Winter. Five days before her birthday. She was very happy when I started showing her the custom ring made for only her. Our promises were in it, Forever & Always.

She can't help but to brag it to everybody. I was so happy when she said yes. I can't stop smiling and my cheeks are starting to go numb with the season.

We were engaged for almost three years. And somewhere in between those years our relationship started getting blurry. I'm not that dumb not to notice. We started getting busy, and if we used to spend more time together, now we're spending it with our friends.

I know that time the reality hit me. That if I married Sana, I'll have responsibilities and I need to fulfill them. I'll give up on a lot of things that I have. And maybe that fact scares me, I feel overwhelmed so I started ignoring her. I know I fucked up. I don't want to hurt her but I don't want to leave either.

I know I love her.

So we decided to get married two months prior to the official release of MK Group, despeit the challenging times.

But right there, while we were saying our vows. I know she didn't mean it. She never meant a word she said. It's hollow. New, how the orbs I once knew that has all the universe inside them before, is now dull. It's lifeless.

It's like a deep desolation, a chasm. It feels sad to know how bleak she looks. That even if she managed to fool and play pretend in front of the guests on our wedding, she didn't managed to fool me. Because, I will always know her. By heart.

At this point I am in the cusp of breaking down. Because I know that there is no way to get my Sana back. All I wanted is just for her to have the universe in her eyes again. To make her happy, glow, to make her smile. And I am in no point of denying the words that I can no longer do that.

And I knew at that time that she did not love me anymore.

Still I stayed. Because I love her.

And the few years of our marriage is happy, we were happy. I tried so hard to make her happy. To make her feel special so she wouldn't leave me.

But everytime she smiles, the universe is still not there.

I can't bring it back how matter I try.

But then she came back with a smile on her face, and it was more than a smile compared to what I'd seen our entire marriage life. It's like the smile she used to give me when we're still a new couple. Shy, dainty, amicable. Like a teenage girl who has a crush on someone.

And it started to go way overboard. It's not just a smile. She. Is. Happy.

And I am just glad but sad at the same time, because I know that, that smile is never for me. It's never from me. It's for someone who makes her happy. Someone new.