Heartbreaker

Chapter 48: Still With You

Taehyung felt exceptionally relaxed as Jungkook lightly ran his fingers through his hair. With the cold splash of water and his gentle massage on his scalp, he felt like he was floating. He let out a soft, long sigh.

Jungkook quietly chuckled as he rinsed his lover's newly darkened hair.

"Raise your head a little, baby."

Taehyung slightly lifted his head off from Jungkook's crossed legs. He felt him knead the back of his head. He uncontrollably moaned.

"It's done."

"More." Taehyung said with his eyes closed.

"Later. My hair will fry."

Taehyung opened his sleepy eyes. He sat on the rim of the tub and grabbed the shower head from Jungkook's hand. The younger turned his back on him and slightly leaned. He rinsed his hair mimicking what was done to him earlier.

"Until when should I rinse?" He asked.

"Until the water is clear."

Taehyung silently worked on his strands.

"You've picked what you'll be wearing tomorrow?" Jungkook tilted his head back to him.

Taehyung nodded.

"Already ironed?"

"Later." He quickly responded. His hair was dripping.

"Have you fixed what you're going to bring?"

"Not yet."

"Why? You said you'll do it this morning?" He already sat up to face him.

Taehyung pulled him back to continue rinsing. "I'll do everything later. Don't nag anymore."

"That's what you said the last time. You forgot to do it."

"Fine. Fine. That's the first thing I'll do once we're out here." He said dismissively.

"I just want you to be ready."

"I know. Thank you. But you have to relax. It's going to be fine."

"You're too relaxed."

There was something off with his tone.

"You're too tensed. You want me to help you ease up?" He reached and fondled his nipple.

"Taehyung." He cut and slapped his hand.

"Is there something wrong?" He asked through furrowed brows.

Jungkook distanced to face him.

"You know there is. Are we just going to distract ourselves with sex every damn time? We hold each other tight every time and fuck like there's no tomorrow. But it's because we feel scared." His voice shook. "Every time I hold you, I want the both of us to know and remember how much I love you and to remind myself that I cannot let you go. Because these days, it's hard. It's hard to see you suffer and deprive yourself. It's even harder because you don't say anything. Do you feel sad? Do you find it tough? Are you regretting? Do you regret choosing us?" He wept.

Taehyung sat down and opened his arms widely. "Come here, baby."

Jungkook went it immediately, snugging his face on his chest.

"I'm sorry. Maybe I did the same thing. I have not been honest. I'm also scared. I'm scared of failing. Scared that dad might be right. It was hard. Going through those interviews only to be disappointed once they knew who I am. But I don't tell you. Because I'm more scared that when I do, you're going to want an easier life for me and send me away. So I distract you whenever you want to talk about it. I don't mind doing menial jobs. I don't care if I don't get to eat hanwoo beef ever again. Just don't return me." His tears fell on the top of his darkened head.