The Rise of the Empire

Chapter 30

I made it back to Alderaan safe and sound. I didn't talk to anyone or look at anyone on the way up to my room.

Once alone, I changed into my yoga pants and a loose fitting shirt. Not knowing what else to do, I did some training excersizes with my sabers to clear my thoughts. After a solid hour of practice, I sat down on my bed to meditate.

My thoughts were centered around Lux. I remembered all the times we had together. The time we first met, when we were on Carlacc, and the Battle of Onderon flashed through my head. I went back to the most recent memory.

Ahsoka, your life is not going to be easy. Me strong, be brave, and never give up hope in the darkest times. Promise me.

I promised him. I guess this is why attachment is forbidden for Jedi I cleared my mind. I put my lightsaber down in front of me. I concentrated some more on moving my saber without touching it. It rotated in the air as the blade came to life. It was still weird seeing it as white instead of green.

I sat and meditated for hours until I had a strange vision. It was the daughter. She was talking to me.

"Come back to where I lay. I have something for you."

That was all she said. I saw blurry images too. Of the son. Of Anakin. Of the Father. Of me.

I kept concentrating. The same thing kept replaying. I don't know why. The daughter must be needing me for something, which doesn't make much sense since she's dead. Or at least I think she's dead.

I started crying again. Life is just so hard. Why did Lux have to die? Why does the Empire make life miserable? Why can't I just go one day without something bad happening?

I looked around my room and sighed. I noticed a slip of paper taped to the back of my door. I don't know how long it was there, but I have never noticed it before.

I opened it. It was a letter from Lux. It read:

Dear Ahsoka,
I don't know when you will read this, but I'll probably be dead by the time you do. I have made the decision to go to the Mustafar prison and see if there are any Jedi there. I know we have talked about it, and you said no every time, I'm almost positive that's where the remaining Jedi are.

If I get captured, don't follow me. It's best if I'm the only one that dies. You have a future in the alliance. I'm just a former Republic Senator. I'm on the wanted list anyway. I'm not that valuable.

There's also something else you need to know - something I have been meaning to say but never mustered the courage. You were that special someone to me for a long time. I would have said something, but you were a Jedi. I didn't know how you'd react.

Then Steela came along. I know it was very awkward, but you were a Jedi. I didn't think you would care. But I guess that problem solved its self. I guess what I'm trying to say is – I love you.

If I die as a result of this, don't feel guilty for not coming after me. Keep moving on. Help the rebellion. Bring the Republic and the Jedi back.

With Love,
Lux

I started crying again. I put the letter down and sat on my bed. I sat for hours just crying, and drifted off to sleep.