Who You Are Book 2

Chapter 73 - Two Rooms

In silence, the two stared at each other for a long time. The first to move was Lan Wangji. His face was pale, but his eyes were clear. He first picked up a white piece of clothing from the ground to cover Wei Wuxian, and then went to find something for himself.

Wei Wuxian was still confused. He almost couldn't believe what had happened. The push was as though a dream had turned into a nightmare, as though a bucket of water had poured down his head, as though somebody had just slapped him hard on the face. He finally found the ability to speak again.

Voice hoarse, he tried, "Lan Zhan, you're... awake?"

Lan Wangji had already finished dressing himself. Sitting far on one side, he wiped his forehead with his right hand. He turned around, facing the mess on the ground, with his back towards Wei Wuxian.

A while later, he finally whispered, "Mn."

Although Wei Wuxian didn't know when he woke up, now that he was awake, Lan Wangji's reaction meant that one thing was clear: he didn't want to continue what they were doing. He didn't want to listen to Wei Wuxian finish what he was saying, either.

Wei Wuxian finally realized just how cruel what he did was.

...

Lan Wangji looked down at Wuxian who was now crying. Lan Wangji didn't realize his actions were hurting Wuxian at the time.

"Wei Ying, I'm sorry," Wangji told him as he pulled him into a hug while tears started to also form in Wangji's eyes.

Wuxian sobbed into Wangji's shoulder, "I should be the one to say sorry."

Lan Xichen saw the two really had a misunderstanding. Wangji seemed to not understand Wuxian's heart for him, just as Wuxian didn't understand Wangji's heart for him.

"Hey, you both had a misunderstanding," Xichen told them, "it's long over with and you can learn from this...and you have. You both don't have to torture yourselves over this because you both were confused."

Wuxian and Wangji looked at Xichen and nodded in understanding. He was right. The two have long been past that and have learned from it. They were also married now and shouldn't have to think back at that time where they were misunderstood.

...

Not wanting to make Lan Wangji feel awkward, Wei Wuxian scrambled to put on his outer clothes and pants.

Wei Wuxian spoke in a tone not much different from his usual one, "You're awake. Well, I'm pretty much awake too."

Lan Wangji turned around and looked at him. Wei Wuxian didn't dare take a guess at the emotions that were inside of his eyes. Arms trembling slightly, he grabbed his clothes and hurried to put them over his head. He watched as Lan Wangji reached out towards him, after a moment of silence, as though wanting to help him wipe away the fluid on his body.

Wei Wuxian blurted, "No thanks!!!"

Lan Wangji's hand paused in mid-air before being retracted.

Wei Wuxian let out a sigh of relief, murmuring, "You don't have to. I'll do it on my own. You don't have to touch me."

Someone like Lan Wangji would likely feel that he ruined the other's appearance after he did it with them. Wei Wuxian definitely didn't have the face to let Lan Wangji clean him. He fumbled for a piece of undergarment, wiped himself with it, and tossed it away, "Um, Lan Zhan, both of us probably drank too much tonight. My apologies."

Lan Wangji didn't say anything.

Wei Wuxian only put on one boot before continuing, "But you don't have to feel too apologetic either. Uh, it's normal for us to be this way right? We have two sons, we have messed around since then."