I no longer get high on the thoughts and memories of you
But I still care about who you screw
I no longer wait for you to call
I realized I was done giving it my all
It's been a little over a year and I still write about you
I try to confuse my mind by thinking "I don't know why I still do"
It's always been my mind vs my heart
Right from the very start
I would be lying to myself if I said I hated you
But oh I wish I did - and this is true
Because how can I give someone, who is absent, all this space in my fucking mind
Even after you left me, tore me apart and lied
How do I let go so I can move forward?
I've tried it all - music, praying, exercise and I went overboard
Why are you so hard to let go?
Even after you showed me your love wasn't thorough
Why do I still obsess over the thoughts of what could've been?
Even after the mess you've placed me in
Why do I still cry thinking about you and everything we shared?
Even after you showed me you never really cared.
YOU ARE READING
All the words I've wanted to say but couldn't.
PoetryEvery poem posted will be non-fictional and very dear to me. I choose to write poems about situations I've been through whether past or present. Entries aren't categorized or posted in any specific order. I am still learning, so many will be awful...
