𝐟𝐨𝐫 𝐲𝐨𝐮𝐫 𝐥𝐨𝐯𝐞 // 𝐝𝐜 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐝𝐨𝐧

three.

There'a suppose to be a party at his place. well not really a party just a place to chill all together. I'm surprised don even counts me as his friend.. Edgar is suppose to be going over there also. Which i'm excited for. I had a photoshoot today with Dro Kenji. His music is actually pretty good.

unlike a lot of rappers, Kenji is funny and sweet as hell. It was fun spending time and talking to him. me and him occasionally talk to each other but he only talks to me when he wants me to take photos or something for him. I don't mind to be honest. I love being around him, he just gives off such good energy.
  Me and Kenji went out for lunch along with his friends. We went to an Italian restaurant called, Angelini Osteria, very complicated name. I got Filet Mignon, kenji got Lamb Chops, his friends got pastas. "How you been," he said to me, while his friends was rambling about something dumb.
  "I been alright," i smiled. "how you been?"
     "better," he said. I messed with my ring that I was wearing. "anxious?"
   "a little," i nervously giggled. I can't help myself but to get nervous around people. Especially talking. I always been such a quiet kid. My mom always thought i was.. "mute" in a way, i'll talk occasionally but not much. "but i'll be fine." i told him, with a faint smile.
  he put his hand on mine and moved it to the side of the table where his friends couldn't see. I blushed. "don't be," he said, he rubbed my hand. "you lowkey have soft ass hands" he smiled.
    "well," i laughed. he held my hand and looked at me in my eyes. i moved my hand and started finishing my food.
   he blankly looked at me and sighed. "bro, remember when Chris jumped off that cliff," Kenji said to his friends laughing.—
     After dinner Kenji grabbed my hand. "hey, i love you, why you acting so different now?" he said.
   "i'm not..." i said, skipping the fact he said he loved me.
  "you are, is it cause you started messing around with that don nigga, that's when you started acting like this,"
    "Bro why would I be stuck and upset abt him? that don't even make sense," I am...
   "man whatever at this point, don't fuck with me if you're gonna act like that then," he said mad and walked off.
  I grabbed his arm. "Kenji," He pushed me off. I never seen him like that before. What the fuck. I got in my car and sat there. Whatever. The day will brighten up, i get to see Edgar later on today.—
   I got to dc house and knocked on the door. I'm surprised i have his address before i have his number. Who cares though. Don girl opened the door. I look at her and gave a slight smile. "hi, Kyu," she said sweetly.
   I walked in. "hey," i said trying to be nice. Dc house is pretty big, way too big to live alone.
  "make yourself comfortable, i'm sure he won't mind,"
  "where is he?" i asked.
     "upstairs in his room," she said.
   I feel rude just inviting myself upstairs but I went anyways. I know she felt some type of way. I don't know dc like that but it felt right for some reason. I knocked on the door. "go the hell away rai," he yelled. I opened the door and closed it.
  "what's wrong?" i asked him. I sat down next to him on the bed.
  "nothing," he said and wiped his tears.
     "talk to me," i said. "I'm here for you don,"
   "Just another breakdown, nothing big," he mumbled. I put my hand on his back.
     "what did rai do?"
    "make the shit worse, it's like... she really don't get me half of the time, she doesn't listen to me. I'm so fucking over it,"
  "what was it about?" i asked
      "i just hate myself, i'm a shitty person," he said. "and she just sat there saying nothing, like fuck you,"
    I looked at him in his eyes. "you don't need her," i mumbled. "or you might, just take a break from each other," i said. "let's go out there and have fun,"
  he looked at me. He grabbed me by my cheek. he leaned in for a kiss. I leaned back and kissed him. I got butterflies. He kissed me again, again, again and then stopped. I looked at him and saw a glisten in his eye. I blushed and got up. "uh, Edgar should be here now hopefully," i smiled.
    "ky," he said. "i love you," he mumbled.
  "I-" i stuttered. "I love you more..."
     he smiled and got up. he grabbed my hand. "Let's have fun."
  here's pictures I took of him and wxst at the party—

him and edgar is so cute together

and here's one i took of myself while on his balcony. —

"we drinking or what?" don asked and got a bottle of hard vodka out.
   "who the hell drinks that shit?"
   "non pussies," he laughed. Even though me and wxst are the same age we still drink. well he drinks occasionally. i grabbed the bottle from don and drunk 1/4th of the bottle. I put it down and breathed heavy tryna not spit it out. I passed it back to don. "damn girl," he laughed and drunk some.
   "crazy," edgar laughed. I took the bottle from don and drunk some more. I began to get a little drunk.
  "bro, how come, wait, how," i stuttered.
     "you good?" don laughed.
    "SHUT UP EVERYONE FUCK!" i yelled. don and edgar laughed. "ok, so like," i laughed and drunk more. "i love you edgar and you don, and you rai and you and you and everyone!"
  "i love you too twin," edgar said.
     I drunk more again. "i bet i can drink this whole thang!"
  "no balls," don said. I laughed and drunk more. I felt like i didn't have control of my body. I got up and fell. i started crawling.
  "i need the bathroom," i said and started crying.
     "jesus," edgar said and picked me up.
   "i don't feel go-" i threw up.
      "WHAT THE FUCK," don yelled. He grabbed me by my hair.
   "OW LET GO, PLEASE DAD, PLEASE, JM SORRY I SAEARR," i cried. don let go and looked at me, feeling sorry.
  "you good?" he said. He picked me up and held me.
  "i'm gonna take her home," — after that it was a complete blackout.