𝐟𝐨𝐫 𝐲𝐨𝐮𝐫 𝐥𝐨𝐯𝐞 // 𝐝𝐜 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐝𝐨𝐧

four.

*this story is a little more explicit, it contains sex ig, skip if you want :) just read the end.. it gives context for the next part.*

I woke up half way in my bed. I got up and went to my living room. Edgar was passed out on my couch. I looked at him. He is so adorable when he sleeps. half of what happened last night i don't even remember.
  One thing that I know is that i definitely embarrassed myself. Edgar opened his eyes and looked at me. "why you staring at me?"
  "i'm not," i said. Moon jumped on him and started licking his face.
  "move!" he yelled at pushed Moon off. "and you are, i woke up to you looking at me, that's creepy." he said and sat up.
  "whatever," i said and brushed him off.
     "you feeling better?"
   I shrugged, "a little I guess,"
      "go and lay down," he told me.   
   "i'll be fine edgar trust," i fake smiled. I got up and sat on the couch next to him, I put my head on his shoulder. "wanna know something?"
  "wassup?" he said.
"me and don kissed last night," i blushed.
     "he has a girl... so he's a cheater?"
   "not like that... i don't think, we just got into the moment and that happened,"
"well i'm happy for you, just don't get known as a industry thot," edgar said, got up and left. so cold for what. Am I really losing all my friends over this one boy... how stupid. I went to my room and sat on my bed looking at my phone. —
   "wanna come over?" i asked don.—
a knock was at my door, I got up and opened it. Don was there. "what's wrong?" i asked him.
   "nothing, just tired," he mumbled. he sat down on my couch. "I enjoyed spending time with you," he said.
  "yeah, me too," I smiled. I leaned in to kiss him. he hesitated but then kissed me. whenever i kiss don I feel like there's nothing around us, no bad things, nothing. we're just in space floating together. Yeah i know that might sound corny but c'mon... it's how i feel. He pulled back and looked at me.
   "you still smell like throw up and vodka," he smiled.
  "fuck off," i said. I kissed him again. he laid back and held me while we began to make out. I felt his print and got butterflies.
  "you feel that?" he asked. i nodded my head. "you want it?"
     I let out a slight moan. he smiled and continued to kiss me. I went down to his neck and began to give him a hickey. he grabbed me by my neck and shook his head, he kissed me again and grabbed my ass. "why?" i asked.
   "i got a girl, you know that," he said.
      "and? break up with her for me,"
    he smiled. "some day,"  turn off. I got up. "bro what's wrong?"he asked.
     "someday i'll stop acting like this," i said bluntly.
   "cmon ky, i ain't mean it like that,"
      "don't just think i'm going to be your fuck buddy whenever you get tired of your girl wack ass pussy,"
    "it's not like that bro. i actually fuck with you, i actually like you.. why you acting like this?"
  I blushed. "you do?"
       "yes bro, why do you think i vent to you? why do you think i kissed you?"
     "i don't know..." i mumbled.
   "i want to break up with her, i'm just going to feel bad," i rolled my eyes. "cmere, ima give you what you need." he grabbed me by my arm and began to kiss me again. he pulled down my shorts and started to rub me. I moaned. "this what you wanted huh?" i nodded my head. he got up and took my shirt off. I was only left in my bra and underwear. I took off his shirt and rubbed his print.
   "i love you," i whispered.
"you too," he said and grabbed my butt. I unbuckled his pants, he took them off and threw them across the room and began to kiss me more. I took his shirt off, which made him only left in his underwear. He sat down and put my on his lap. He began to kiss my neck and started taking my bra off. he put it on my coffee table. he pulled his underwear down and pulled my underwear to the side. He slowly put his dick in and made a slight moan noise. he gave me a hickey and started to fuck me slow.
    "SHIT," i yelled.
   "what's wrong?, it's too much?" he smiled. I nodded my head. He went faster. "do it yourself." he told me and stopped.
  "i can't," i said.
     "fuck you mean, slut?" i got butterflies again.
  "daddy," i said, he slapped me and laid me down on the couch, he put one of my leg up on his shoulder and began to go fast. I began to moan louder and louder everytime. "slow down," i said and put my hand on his chest to push him away.
     he slapped my hand. "no, don't push me away, do you understand bitch?"
   "yes daddy," i said and put my head back. I feel like  there's nothing that can overcome the feelings I have for don. i began to shake. He held me and kept going. "i'm cumming," i yelled and came.
   "there you go," he smiled. he went slower and his strokes became sloppier. he moaned in my ear. He pulled out and nutted on my stomach. he got some up and put his finger in my mouth. "like it?" he asked.
   I nodded my head and smiled.
"i love you so much, Kyu,"
     "I love you more donny," I tossed a blanket over myself and sat up. "that's my first time feeling like that,"
   "i can tell," he smiled. he pulled his underwear up and sat on the couch. "we can watch something if you want," he said.
   "put something on," i said. me and don cuddled up on the couch, I ended up falling asleep on him.—
  Don shook me awake. i opened my eyes slowly. "i gotta go, alright? I left my number on the table, call me or text me if you need something, i'll come back and bring you food, bye ma'" he said and left. i ended up falling back asleep.—
   I woke up to someone coming in my apartment. I near had a heart attack but it was don. he kept his promise and brought me food. I smiled. "aw thank you don," I said and got up. I put my shorts on and shirt.
  "welcome, i got some cafe río, I don't know what you like, so i just got a salad, steak, tortilla, cheese and sour cream."
"sounds good," i smiled. I put my arms around his neck and kissed him. "are you leaving?"
   "i can stay the night," he said and sat on my barstool.
  "yay, that's good!" i said and sat down and began to eat my food. "have you ate?" i asked him.
  "yeah, grabbed something to eat with my girl,"
      "of course." i said, getting upset.
    "bro, i'm not finna do this shit with you," he said and got up and went to my bathroom.
  "then don't," i mumbled. I finished half of my food and put it in the microwave. i got full. I know that shit was gonna taste bad in the morning. oh well.
I went to my room and saw don sitting on my bed going through photos. "what are you doing?" i asked.
   "looking at how beautiful you are," he smiled.
  "those photos are so ugly, stop," I laughed. they we're photos of me when i was younger.
    "nah," he said. I kissed his cheek and laid down.
  "i should take a shower but i don't feel like it, i'm still hungover," he laughed. I went on my phone and saw kenji texted me.
   "i'm sorry, can you come see me real quick?"
I thought abt it for a second but decided to ignore him. Me and don cuddled up for the rest of the night, "hey, can i ask you something real quick?" he asked.
   "wassup?" I asked him.
  "last night when i was pulling your hair you called me "dad" what was that about?"
    "I don't know," i lied. soon i'll open up to him about it. I already opened up to kenji about it and edgar. Why can't i do the same with don, do I feel like he's gonna judge me or something?—
   "i don't know, when i was younger shit was just.. horrible. And i'm surprised i'm here now... i always hated my body, hated who i was. all of that but i'm still here. everytime someone raises their hand at me I think they're gonna hurt me."
  Kenji looked at my and rubbed my cheek. "i'm sorry, no one deserves that..."
    "yeah I guess, I just made it normal. My dad just hated me because i reminded him of my mom... that's what he told me... that's why i was happy to move out of that place. especially my stepmom treated me like shit. they called me horrible things, like i'm a whore, i'm going to be just like my mom." i began to tear up.
Kenji held me. "it's okay," he said and ran his fingers through my hair. "i love you, i'll make sure no one hurts you alright?" i nodded my head and wiped my tears.
  Kenji looked at me in my eyes and kissed me. I kissed him back and felt at peace. It felt like he's someone i can trust...someone who would protect me no matter what.—
i began to tear up. "if you say so..." he said and continued to watch tv. Maybe i'm blind... does he really love me.. or does kenji. I'm stuck in this stupid ass love triangle. But i never had feelings for kenji which is so fucking weird. I can't. I just ended up going to bed. all of this confusion was making me feel multiple emotions at once.