𝐟𝐨𝐫 𝐲𝐨𝐮𝐫 𝐥𝐨𝐯𝐞 // 𝐝𝐜 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐝𝐨𝐧

six.

I woke up and fell out my bed. I don't know how but I just did. No nightmares this time. I guess my clumsy days are back. I got up off the floor and went to the bathroom. I brushed my teeth and washed my face. I began to do my makeup. Yeah i'm the type of person to do my makeup before getting dressed. i ran the water for moon and went on my phone. I texted Kenji. I don't really have much today but to take photos for don. —
Wanna come over for dinner tonight?
  I put my phone down on the counter. I picked up Moon and put her in the bath. I started to wash her. "you're so cute," i smiled. She stocked out her tongue. I don't know what i'll do without moon. She's apart of my happiness. She just makes me so happy. She's basically a piece of me now. i got a towel and wrapped her into it. I grabbed my phone and held her i my arm while i looked through my messages. Kenji texted me back and said—
  sure.
dry ass. I don't blame him, what's really to say to that. I wonder if he'll let me repaint his fingers. Don texted me and said—
  lmk when you're ready so i can come get you
bitch acting like i don't have a car. I texted back saying i'm ready. I put moon down and dried her off. I grabbed a pink shirt, white jeans and converses. I put them on. I grabbed my backpack and waited in the lobby for him.—
   I'm here
i got up and walked out to his car. I sat down and fixed my hair. He looked at me. "you look nice today,"
  "thank you," i mumbled. he put his hand on my thigh.
   "you still mad or what?"
  "maybe," he started driving.
"i apologized," he sighed. "i broke up with her, if that makes you feel better,"
    "yes it does," i said and smiled a bit.
  he grabbed my hand. "so that means you'll keep messing around with me?" i hesitated for a second and thought of what kenji said to me. "if you don't want to that's fine,"
    "STOP DOING THAT," I yelled.
  "doing what bro?"
     "tryna make me feel bad for your sorry ass,"
   he moved his hand. "alright,".
We got to the place. Don was wearing a suit... well a dress shirt, a black tie and black dress pants. the same thing he wore in the notice me music video. He looks so handsome like that. —

after spending half of the day with his friends and him. He started driving back to my place. We just listened to music and watched the sunset. Once we got to my place he looked at me. "i love you," he mumbled.
  "i love you too," i blushed. don put his hand under my face and pushed me in for a kiss. I kissed him . He pushed away and looked at me in my eyes.
  "since i broke up with her now... i'm lowkey wondering if you wanna be my girl,"
I looked at him and frowned a bit. Either I say yes or no. "maybe," i said like a dumbass. "i mean don i want to but i just don't want to get heartbroken,"
   he nodded slightly. "yeah i understand,".
i sighed. "i'm down, promise not break my heart."
  he smiled. "promise." Don left but i still had a "date?" with Kenji. I'm so fucking confused on everything that happened right now. This don't feel real. I don't believe don. I only knew him for 3 weeks or so and he's already ready for a relationship. what if he's just playing me.. what if he actually don't mean all of this.—
  I made me and Kenji some steak with eggs. Yeah, disgusting but they're healthy and give you protein. Kenji looked at me. "what made you happier all of a sudden?"
    "well, me and edgar made up and.." i stopped. i did n't want him to get mad at me for dating don and call me a idiot.
  "and?" he asked. I looked down and started playing with my ring. "really?"
  "i'm sorry, he did tell me sorry and now we're dating because I.. i don't know,"
  "okay," he said, blankly.
     I grabbed Kenji hand. He moved it from me. "Dude why are you so fucking mad, you told me "it's your life, i'm not going to make decisions for you"
  He put his head down and got up from the table. "i have somewhere to go, talk to me when you're done being retarded."
here we go again drama. I wish shit would stop being so weird and complicated. "Do you fucking like me or something?" Kenji less tensed up. he looked down. I went over to him and grabbed his arm.
   He kissed me. I kissed him back. isn't this basically cheating... He grabbed me by my waist and kept kissing me. Kenji took my shirt off. I took his shirt off too. He laid me down on my couch and pulled down my pants. he went down on me and began to eat me out.
  The same place me and don had sex at... i pushed him. "i'm sorry kenji, i just don't feel good,"
  "it's fine," he mumbled. He got up and put his shirt back on. "i wasn't feeling it anyways,"
  I sat up and looked at him. "I don't feel that way towards you, I'm going to be honest,"
   "me either," he nervously laughed. "i'm going go home.. i'll text you tomorrow." He went home. I laid on my couch and just looked outside. What is wrong with me.. Don is the only man i want. and im not going to let anybody get in the way of that.