The whole Christmas and New Year's break was a bit difficult. There were really times na I was tempted to text or call him. Pero pinigilan ko talaga yung sarili ko. I can do this. I don't miss him. I can't miss him. Hindi rin naman niya ko namimiss eh.
Kaso one night I reflected... It was unfair. My sudden goodbye was unfair. Porke ba ayaw niya sakin romantically eh I'll end the friendship niya. Eh sa yun lang ang kaya niyang ioffer eh?
And one more thing I realized na I was so mababaw and weak. And this is not me. This was not me a year ago. I was strong and I'm not the underdog. And I definitely miss him bad.
So we saw each other on the last day of the year. We ate at Bites Restaurant. And that halo-halo. Another memory was imprinted in my brain. Surprisingly he has a gift for me. A perfume.
I wore that perfume everyday until the last spray and I've kept the bottle. My remembrance of him. So lame right??? Ayoko pa nga sanang gamitin at itago na lang pero masasayang so I decided to use it.
Me and my crazy thoughts coz of M.
