Sanity

Chapter Thirthteen

I was awoken to strange noises coming from an unknown source. I wasn't aware of my surroundings, they weren't like the place I was in, nor where they my childhood house. I gently peeked open my eyes and the slight crane in my neck got ten times worse, but I wasn't complaining, I was feeling something that wasn't emptiness or numbness. Then I felt my limbs become weak, I felt majestic, it was an abnormal sensation flowing through my body, I couldn't feel my heart beating in my chest, I felt paralysed, I was finally losing my entire mind and I was okay with it. I heard heavy footsteps and for a total second I forgot who I was and where I was, I almost felt at peace, was I dying?Is this what dying felt like?

As I kept gazing down at the floor, I felt like my body began floating, I had to be dying, my wish was finally coming through. I was no longer living or so I thought. I heard voices but no words that I could understand, just noise. I heard slamming and a figure appeared in front of me, I could just see shapes of a lean man, then all of a sudden I was hit with blatant reality, I wasn't dying. My torture was only beginning.

I tried to form words, sentences even, but it was no use, my mouth would just open and close. After awhile he still stood there staring at me or so I thought. My eyesight was still hazy, yet my mind was going 10 miles a minute. I had so much questions yet so little answers, I knew he didn't like me but maybe, just maybe we were alike and he did this to all his new friends. I knew whatever he had given me was slowly wearing off but who was I to try act like we were friends, hell I don't even know his name.

I could feel my face start to pain me after awhile,my eyesight also came back, but my limbs were still limp and lifeless. I tried to form a sentence but once again all the came out were mumbles. I tried to gaze down but my head hurt so much. I glanced and seen a cloth like item placed around my mouth. I grew more panicked. The reality of it all finally settling in.

I started to feel life coming back into my arms and they were hurting me but I was determined to get answers. I start trashing my arms but soon realised they were tied behind my back I was on a chair. My surroundings resembled a warehouse but I vaguely remember pulling up outside an apartment block.

The figure lurking in the corner started to take long strides towards me, I decided to play innocent and then when he might consider untying me and then I can put my self defence skills to the test. I made my eyes enlarge and tried to make them show fear but being completely honest I felt at peace, like this wasn't happening, like I wasn't about to be tortured. The furious feeling I once had was now gone.

He appeared in front of me, long hair, broad shoulders, that was all I got from the moonlight shinning slightly through the small window on the ceiling.

I grew more aggravated as he approached me but I kept my face looking fearful. He gently opened his mouth but then closed it.

Until he spoke" Not so brave now are we? Hmm? Nothing to say?"

I was furious but I kept my face fearful still, it might help me later on if I act like I fear him and then just lash out. I just gazed up at him through my eyelashes and he muttered "fuck!"

He opened his mouth but once again shut it just as quick. His hand itched towards my face but I swerved away from him at lightning speed. He grew annoyed at this and began to bring his hand towards my face once again but due to my neck being at an angle I couldn't swerve. He gently took the cloth wrapped around my chin and mouth. He then yanked the cloth out of my mouth almost pulling my teeth out with it. I was beyond furious with him. Annoyance took over my body. I wasn't thinking when I decided to speak to him. I addressed him in the wrong manner and now I will pay the price. I decided screaming wouldn't be the best idea so instead I started to yell at him.

"You stupid boy do I look like a rag doll or something? You can't just take me or as you like to call it borrow me and then think you have the right to kidnap me because you do realise that, that is what you did? I mean I didn't come here willingly nor did ask you to drug me and tie me to a chair. I don't know what the hell you're planning on doing to me but I swear I kill you if you touch me! I know self defence and I am not afraid to use it. You are basically the biggest di-"

I stopped my rant mid sentence as while I was ranting on and letting my anger out, I pulled so hard on the ropes that they broke and my legs weren't tied to the chair. I feared what would happen to me after what I had just said. I knew then by the rage present in his face that I needed to get out of there. He was standing straight in front of me so I swung my leg up and kicked him straight in his special parts. He grumbled in pain and knelt over, then went tumbling down on the floor with a thud.

I started to shake once again the realisation of what I had done hit me. I made a run for it. I had to. If I wanted to escape it's what I had to do. I felt bad for using his weakness as one of my strengths but I had to. I spotted a door and I ran for it. It flung open and I ran. I ran as fast as I possibly which obviously wasn't fast enough. I took a sharp right and sped down the stair. I nearly tumbled down the last few steps, but quickly regained my balance. I didn't once look back until I heard heavy foot steps behind me. I started to look for a place to hide. I seen crates stacked up so I quickly gathered myself into a ball and hid behind then. I was only 5 ft so this man towered over me whenever he was around. I once again heard footsteps and him muttering curse words under his breath.

The adrenaline from before was no longer present and I was panting, it really wasn't a good time for my anxiety to show. I was suppose to be fearless at times like this but right now, due to the drugs wearing off, as well as the adrenaline, I was petrified as to what this man wanted with me and why I insisted on provoking him further.

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