Scared to love

Tacos for dinner.

Harry's POV

The next morning when we woke up I decided I should tell her about my past. So I did I told her everything. She wasn't mad that I didn't tell her like most girls would have been she was just caring and hugged me. I needed that. I needed someone to hold me tight and tell me it was going to be okay. When we pulled away from our hug a few minutes later I noticed she was crying. I was on the verge of tears from thinking about my past and she was making it worse by crying. "Why are you crying?" I had asked her right as a tear fell from eye and trailed down my cheek. "I just I'm so sorry you had to go through that." She told me. Is she serious she's been through a hell of a lot more than me. "It's nothing compared to the shit you've been through." I said trying to understand why she was sad for me. "We'll I still don't like the fact that you had to go through something so horrible it hurts me because it's hurting you." She said making my heart clench. Now the tears really started. "Really." I asked her wiping away my tears. "Yes Harry I know it probably hurt like hell to watch your dad abuse your mom and than leave and you could never do anything about it because you were so little. And that makes me feel for you." She had said.

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Shane's POV

After harry told me about his abusive father we decided to just lay in bed for a few hours and just cuddle. It was new for me. I never laid in bed with anyone like this before. I don't think anyone has ever held me like Harry is right now. I don't think I've ever run my hands through someone's hair before like I'm doing to harry right now. If I've never done this before maybe I'm not good at it. Maybe he won't notice if I stop. I pulled my hand from his hair and slightly moved away from harry. I didn't get very far because his arms were wrapped around my waist, but I wasn't leaning into him as much as I was before. "what's wrong?" damn it he noticed. "I thought maybe you didn't like it. I-I've never you know done this kind of thing before." I stuttered out. "what do you mean you've never done this before." doesn't he know me and Sam never really did this kind of stuff. "um well Sam never really liked me to touch him or him touch me like this. I mean he he liked to touch me but just not this way and he never liked cuddling or being hugged or holding hands none of that." as soon as I said Sam's name harry tensed and I felt his hands turn to fists around me. "well you were doing great. let's not talk about Sam okay. like ever again. I can't seem to get it through my head that anybody would ever treat any woman especially you like complete shit." "agreed I will never talk about him again."

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Harry decided to blow of some steam and go for a run so I was left inside trying to find out what to do. I wonder into the room that's been saved for my future child. I'm a mother. well I mean not yet but there is a little human being growing inside me and that's crazy to me. one day when ever he/she feels like it I will become a mother. Me Shane Waters, high school junior, girl in hiding from her family's stalker, rape victim, kidnap victim will become a mother in the next 7 or so months. I still wish it would have happened differently but oh well I guess I'm just shit out of luck. I can't go back and tell the old me not to date Sam and I'm certainly not going to get an abortion either. there is a life growing inside of me and I can't take his/her life away because I want this to happen differently, that would be selfish and wrong. Besides I'm kind of excited about this whole thing now that I'm thinking about it. I mean I guess you have to make the best out of life. right? This whole thing is really exciting because we get to pick a theme and buy all the cute little baby stuff, and all the cute little clothes.

I'm really glad it's not just me all alone. I have my friends yeah but Harry has really been here for me and it reassures me that I can do this with him by my side. I walk out of my baby's room and walk down the hallway into the kitchen to look for something to make for dinner. since Harry is being so supportive and just being great I'll make dinner for him tonight. I mean I can't like put tables and candles out side like he did because I'm pregnant and lifting heavy things can be harmful to the baby so none of that. I search through the cabinets and find some taco shells. it's perfect we made tacos a few months ago in the first few days we meant. oh my gosh this is so perfect Harry is going to love it. I could just cry from how romantic this is. well sort of romantic I don't know. all I know is its cute and i'm doing it.

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I've finished making the taco meat, chopped up all the toppings, and baked the taco shells to perfection. I made sweat tea because sweat tea is amazing especially when I make it. not trying to brag but its pretty darn good. I hear the front door open and freeze. I hear Harry's voice ring through the house and my body relaxes. "mhhm something smells amazing." a few moments later Harry walks in to the kitchen in gym shorts and a tank top drenched in sweat from head to toe. "and it's definitely not you." I say flashing him a grin. "oh thanks babe." "go take a shower and change and than you can have some of my amazing meal." "oh amazing huh." "yes amazing now get out of here you sweaty dude." harry turns around and starts to walk to our room, "sweaty dude." his British voice says jokingly.

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We eat our tacos and I explain to harry that I made them because tacos was the first thing we cooked together when we first meant. he told me I was cute for making them. After dinner we both did dishes me washing harry drying and putting away. then we decided to watch a funny movie. we ended up with the Kevin Hart movie The Wedding Ringer. it was hilarious at some parts I couldn't stop laughing. one time when I was laughing at a funny part I looked over at harry but he was already looking at me and it looked like he had been for awhile. His forest green eyes stared into mine and I got lost. suddenly the movie didn't matter and I couldn't remember what was so funny. Harry's hand and made it's way to my cheek and he kissed me. of course I kissed back, I love it when your happy." his thick British accent seemed to flow out like gentle waves in the ocean.

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Once again i'm so sorry this is late like I said before I have AP testing coming up and i'm really trying to study for that so I can do good on them. after next week I promise updates will be much faster.

Anyway this was kind of a filler chapter the next chapter will be more eventful.

if your taking AP tests or finals good luck.

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