Scared to love

Harry

Harry's POV

So I may or may not have stayed up until 5 o'clock in the morning watching Teen Wolf. in my defense this is all Shane's fault. she got me into this she sucked me into this world of supernatural characters and high school students.

I've now moved Shane into our bed. she barely even moved when I picked her up, heavy sleeper I guess. unless she's having a nightmare. ever since I laid down beside her I've been thinking about our kiss. I really kissed her. I harry styles kissed Shane Waters on the lips. this is the same girl that would flinch at my touch a few months ago. I'm so glad she let me into her life at first I thought she would push me away in fear of me being like Sam or any of the other jackass's who were rude to her. They won't be anymore cause she's mine and I will beat the shit out of anyone who even looks at her wrong. She's mine now see really is mine and I protect what's mine. Don't get me wrong I'm not some possessive creep who thinks she's just some object that's now under my control. No she's mine and i'm hers and as of now we're happy and if anything or anybody wants to try and change that than we will deal with it than and there.

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I was walking home from school. I walked in to my house usually my mom made a snack for me when I got home so when she wasn't in the kitchen I knew something most be wrong. She never forgot to make me a snack unless she was sick or not home. I put my backpack on the table and went to grab the home phone to call my mom. Before I could even get half way across the kitchen I heard a low male voice yell "what the Fuck is wrong with you. you stupid fucking hoe." and then there was a loud crashing sound. I foolishly ran to the sound coming from my parents room. once I reached there door I slowly opened it to reveal my father about to knock everything off there shared dresser. there was a broken lamp on the floor and other items from there night stand. my eyes continued to examine the scene in front of me and that's when a saw my mom. she was crying but that wasn't what I was most worried about. that's when I started crying my mom had a gash across her forehead, a black eye, and bruises covering her practically naked body. I didn't know what to do. when I looked back at my father but instead of my father it was Sam. than I looked at my mother but it wasn't my mother it was Shane. Sam walked up to her and grabbed her by her hair. anger rushed through my whole body and I tried to get to her but I wasn't moving. I kept trying to move but I couldn't I was helpless I tried to yell but nothing happened.

I woke up covered in sweat. Shane was still sleeping safely next to me. I couldn't help but replay that memory in my head. I was only 9 but I never felt so helpless and stupid ever in my life. if I could go back I would have done something I would have stopped him but the truth is I was to little to stand up to my drunken, violent father.

~Flashback~

My father seemed to notice my presence because when I looked at him he looked back at me with blood shot eyes. "look here's one of our little fuck ups now. I think he would like to know what our marriage has been about lately huh." "p-please don't." my mother said choking on her own cries. "no lets tell him. yeah. well your slut of a mother has failed to tell you that for the past couple of months I would come home totally wasted in the middle of the bloody night and take advantage of her weather she liked it or not. we would have sex when ever I wanted and she would never say anything because she doesn't want me to leave so she's a stupid bitch and lets me do whatever i want. i could beat her to death and she still wouldn't do anything because she wants me to stay and be miserable here." "P-please stop h-he doesn't n-need to hear this, p-please." she says as fresh tears fall down her face. "Don't tell me what to fucking do bitch. he says pulling his hand back and punching my mother right in the face. "I'm done fuck all of you stupid fuckers I'm leaving."

~flashback ends~

He left that day and I never saw him again. After that happened I decided I would never let anyone hurt my mom again so I started boxing lessons. I guess seeing my mom get abused and disrespected is what made me drawn to Shane so much. maybe I like knowing that now I can protect someone and know that I was there for her when she needed someone and that she can feel safe and protected because of me. I should probably tell shane about this tomorrow but right now I need to go back to sleep so i'm not tired tomorrow. I lay back down and wrao my arms around Shane securely. she stirs a little bit and than turns to face me. "are you alright harry?" she asks. " yeah babe just go back to sleep." I say kissing her forehead. "okay" she says resting her head on my chest before falling back to sleep. my eyes slowly falling closed and I fall back to sleep.

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okay so once again I'm so sorry for the update taking so long I had a bit of writers block and I've been really busy lately. I promise I will do my best to update every week if I can but AP testing is coming up and I'm going to be busy studying and than finals are after that so hopefully I will have time to update but over the weekends I should be able to write. okay I'm ranting now so I'll stop.

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