Scared to love

Fix you.

Harry's POV

"Harry can you stay with me?" She said. "Uh sure." I say and get in bed. I don't know why but all the sudden I just got so nervous to be around her. I want to just hold her but would that be weird for her if I held her while we slept. "Harry can you hold me." She says as if reading my mind. "Sure." I said feeling relieved that she wanted me to hold her. I put my arms around her and she turned around in my hold and put her hands near my chest. I laid back on my back and she moved to rest her head on my chest and warped her arms Around me. It felt good to hold her. "Harry" she said almost so quietly I could of missed it. "Yeah" "thank you for being here for me no one has ever cared about me this much before." She said making my heart ache for her. "I'm sorry nobody ever cared about you but I promise that I will always care about you and i will always be there for you." I said holding her tighter. "Thank you so much harry."

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I wake up to see Shane still sound asleep on my chest. It's nice to have her this close to me, usually she flinches away or just keeps her distance. I hate Sam so much for doing this to her. I can't help but to think about what it would have been like to know her before Sam made her scared of men. She doesn't deserve this crap I can't even believe any man would do that to any women. Well that's just it he's not a man he's a fucking coward and he thinks he can run from his mistakes. Eventually I'll see him again and that will be the day I beat him to a pulp. Shane starts to stir in my hold and her eyes flutter open. "Good morning." She says smiling. "What are you so happy about." I say smiling too. "I just haven't slept this good in weeks and it feels great to get some good sleep." She says. "Well I'm glad I could help. What shall we do today ma lady." I say trying to keep the smile on her face. "How about we start with some breakfast." She says getting out of bed. It's than that I realize that she's wearing just a shirt and knickers. She was comfortable sleeping with me in just that. We'll I'm surprised honestly I didn't think I would ever be able to hold her hand let alone sleep in her bed with her practically half naked. But I'm not complaining believe me I'm honored she would trust me like that.

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"Woman what on earth are you doing." I say as she flips a pancake and it lands right on the floor. "Okay you do it then mister chief." She says rolling her eyes and handing me the spatula. "That's sir chief styles to you." I say taking the spatula out of her hand and flipping the next pancake perfectly. "Alright show off give me that back I got this." She says snatching the spatula and attempting to flip the next pancake. She tries again and almost had it until it slipped off the spatula and right onto the floor next to the other one. I tried to hider laugh but she caught me. "Alright smart ass teach me your ways." She says giving me a you better stop laughing look. It's nice that she's so comfortable around me now. "Alright pancake destroyer." I say as I step closer to her and wrap my big hands around her smaller ones on the spatula. I have to wrap one arm around her to do this and I can already see her tensing. "Relax it's just me I won't ever hurt you." I say soothingly in her ear. Her body visibly relaxes at my words. "Ready." I say and then in one swift movement flip the pancake. "Do it again but slower." She says. "Alright ready." I say and go for the next pancake. "Alright you try by yourself."I say removing my hands and taking a step back. She gently pours the pancake mix on the pan careful not to get to much and then waits until it's time to flip. "Okay here goes nothing." She says and does the same swift movement I showed her ad successfully flips the pancake. "Yes." She cheers. "I did it I did it." She cheers and even does a little dance. It's on this moment that I decide I'm going to fix her I'm going to make her happy because the way she looks now so happy and enjoying life should be the way she looks everyday. I'm going to make her happy. I'm go to fix her.

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Shane's POV

It's been 2 weeks since I told harry everything. 2 weeks since I slept in the same bed as harry. 2 weeks since he held me in his arms and made me feel safe. 2 weeks since the first time I was truly happy in what felt like forever. You would think I would be happy and I am because harry has been so great and he comes over all the time and it's lovely. But right now I'm alone and quite frankly I'm a little scared because my period was supposed to happen 2 weeks ago and now I'm scared. Scared that I could be pregnant. Scared of what people will think. Scared because I'm not ready to a mother. Scared because I'll be alone. No you won't you have your family and you have your two best friends Leslie and Sierra and you have harry. Yeah but how will they react if I really am pregnant. I need a friend preferably a girl friend who would be very understanding and helpful. I need Sierra. What I should tell you about Sierra is that she's very religious at least religious enough to be nice to anyone and everyone and she tries her best not to judge others. Plus you have to respect her because she's been dating senior hottie Louis Tomlinson for 2 years and they haven't done anything other than make out. That's actually amazing and a miracle in today's society. She's who I need right now.

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I called Sierra and she's stopping at the store to get a pregnancy test and a bunch of junk food because what do most people do when they're nervous? They eat junk food. We'll at least that's what we do.

There's a knock on the door and I'm instantly nervous. I open the door and there she is holding three grocery bags and her purse. "Oh my gosh are you okay you most be freaking out." She says embracing me in a tight hug. "I'm freaking out but I'm trying not to let it get to me until I know for sure." I say. "It's all going to be fine no matter what I'm here for you and i know louis and Leslie will be there for you and if I need to force anybody else to be there for you I will." She says in all seriousness and walks past me into the kitchen. She sats all the bags down and takes out the test. "Let's just get this over with but before you take this test I want you to keep in mind that a baby is a gift from God no matter where the baby comes from or who it's parents are a baby is a blessing okay and we can get through anything okay."she says holding out her pinkie finger and I lock mine with hers. This was something we used to do as kids and occasionally do now. "Alright here goes nothing. I say taking the box to the bathroom with me. I pull it out and sit on the toilet peeing on the little stick. I sat it on the sink and wash my hands. I leave the bathroom and give it time to get the correct results. I sit at the table with Sierra and we start eating our junk food.

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I'm scared to tell him. I'm scared of his reaction. I know he's different than Sam but he can still get angry I've seen it.
I have to tell him there is no way around it everyone else knows about it. We'll everyone as in my parents and my two best friends but now it's time to tell harry. Tell him what happened yesterday its time to tell him my results. I called him and told him I had to tell him something important and asked if we could meet so I could tell him in person. He agreed and here I am getting dropped of at the park by Leslie who agreed to drive me here. "Good luck." She says as I open the door to get out of her car. I'm instantly nervous of course I was nervous to tell my parents too but at least with them I knew they wouldn't get angry or mad at me they never got mad at me mostly because they were laid back people. But I know harry can get angry and I'm scared and now I'm regretting coming here. But than I see him and my nerves seem to relax a bit. "You know your kind of scaring the shit out of me here. Every other Time we talk we never meant at some park at night in the dark. Please tell me your not going to kill me." Harry joked. "Harry it's 7 o'clock the sun just went down it's not that dark and I wouldn't kill you." I said. "We'll what did you want to talk about." He says sitting on a park bench. I join him and take a deep breath this is it. "We'll you see I kind of missed my period by like two we..." I was cut off by Harry's words. "Wow um Shane look I know we're Friends I'd even say close friends but I'm not a girl and I don't really want to know about your period schedule." I says obviously oblivious to what I was getting at. "Harry that's not what I'm trying to say." I say trying to lead him in the right direction. "I'm confused what are you trying to say then." He asks in confusion. "I'm trying to say that we'll I'm trying.." "Spit it out." Oh whatever I'll just tell him straight up.

"I'm pregnant."

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Oh my gosh it a whale of a wash. Haha

Shane is prego with Sam's baby. Don't hate me.

500 plus read do you understand that is half of a thousand. I'm actually so happy. Thank you for reading this book it means so much.

GIF of Shane doing her little victory dance on side or at the top.