Had To Be You

Hello love | Ch: 13

Huphh.... Calm down Eva, with this amount of butterflies in my whole fucking body, I might explode.

I have to control that feeling and remove it from my face so that my mum doesn't doubt anything. Before entering my home I was standing outside on the front yard trying to not smile and not bring Liam's face, his eyes, his touch, his lips, his everything to my mind.

There were multiple times that I tried to open the door, then stopped because the smile on my face reappeared again and again. Finally after trying so hard for 10 minutes I could bring a little bit of tiredness on my face and then enter.

Mum notices me entering the house and asks "how was the party?"

"Yeah. It was good. We had a good time." I said with a very plain face. "But... uh... My mind was distracted. I have a bunch of assignments that I have to complete."

"Eva, come on, you should give yourself a break. You'll go crazy if you don't relax and have fun with your friends once in a while."

"Yeah maybe."

"Didn't I tell you that high school is just the start of your life outside school. If you don't experience any of these now you might find all these things pretty overwhelming when you graduate and that might be stressful."

Everything she said wasn't anything new. I've heard it before. But I didn't cut her. Lying to her already made me feel guilty. So I let her continue the same old lecture. "So you should at least know how to have fun with your friends. And trust me going off track is what helps us become more determined of what we actually want to do."

I give her a smile and say "Thanks mum, that was.... actually helpful."

When I walk upstairs I realize there's one thing that I felt really strange about the whole speech. She never even once mentioned anything about a boyfriend. It seemed really striking.

She had been on it for a long time. We had an argument like a few weeks ago. But since the last two weeks she has not even once said anything about any boy.

She sure asked me if I was going on a date but once I said no she did not stretch the topic.

Anyways.

I would like to believe that she has finally realized that I can make a few decisions of my life on my own and that she does not always have to guide me into doing something.

I go inside the washroom to get changed. I looked at myself in the mirror and my eyes were glowing.

Everything that happened a few minutes ago came rushing back to my mind how he held my hands, looked into my eyes now that I think of it so precisely I remember him looking down at my lips maybe he thought about kissing me on my lips but then it was only the first date, so he went for the cheeks.

I cover my face with my hand just so that I could somehow stop blushing so much. But it's like my heart and mind were not listening to me anymore.

I can't stop recalling how it felt when he was so close that I shut my eyes and the moment I felt his lips. They felt so soft on my cheeks I held my breath as I could feel his warm breath on my face and every touch on my skin felt so good.

I change my dress, get into my nightwear and jump into bed. But then I remembered that I have a few assignments to revise. I'm gonna be 110% prepared for whatever's coming in the next geography class.

I have never been intimidated by any teacher or their knowledge before because I always find it interesting. But Mr. Hyde's words, the way he walked around, the way he looked at people was different.