Had To Be You

I Judge Me | Ch: 47

I haven't stopped thinking about what Hyde said. School's over. I haven't spoken to Liam since I stepped out of the washroom. I told him that I'm just stressed about the upcoming semester. He pulled me closer and placed a kiss on my neck.

How big of an idiot am I to think that confessing to Hyde in a humanistic way would actually make things better. Not only did it make things worse, I'll soon have to register myself to an asylum. All this confusion is driving me crazy.

I shut the locker and zip my bag. Liam's in the washroom. Chloe's still arranging the books in her locker. "Evelyn. What's going on?" I look at her, then look at Jasper. He smiles and tells Chloe that he'll meet her outside.

"I don't have a good feeling about Liam. Something's going on."

"Evelyn, we've been over this. We already know that there's a good chance he's cheating on you. And you still wanna give him time.... And chance.... Remember?"

"No No. He's not cheating. I guess. I think it's something else." Chloe suddenly starts to search her bag. "What? What are you doing?"

She looks over my shoulder and whispers "incoming". Oh.

I don't turn around to look at him. Several seconds later I feel his presence beside me and he instantly throws his arm on my shoulder. I look up at him and smile. He removes a few hairs from my forehead and kisses on it. I put my hand around his back and held him closer.

I wish I could hold him like this forever. There's always a possibility that he fell out of love and got involved with some other girl or that she could've been a friend from the past whom he was helping.

But if it were just a friend he wouldn't have kept it from me. Maybe it's his ex and now things are platonic so he's kept her away from me to keep me from getting insecure. But then hiding something like this is not ideal either.

And then there's the woman. All of these theories are just a bunch of rubbish because it was not a girl. It's a woman. It's more than just helping out an ex-girlfriend and lying to me about it. The lying to me part stays consistent and rest of it is just a big puzzle.

Now I kind of wish this whole lie to be about a previous relationship. Because I don't want him to get involved in something dangerous.

And then there's the fact that all of this goes back to Hyde, who's most certainly not to be trusted. The only thing that's keeping me from disbelieving him was his behaviour. He was so mad that he couldn't poison Liam.

After leaving school, we walk together for a little while. I tell Liam that it's better for him to not go much near my place, he doesn't say anything after that, just gives me a forehead kiss and leaves.

Chloe and Jasper parted just outside school so Chloe's standing in a distance and judging me. She isn't wrong to judge me. I judge me. I'm going insane I suppose. At times so many things goes on inside my mind that I can't get hold of one single thought. And I'm left with nothing.

"So... you were saying?"

"Uh, are you free tonight?"

"Yeah, you can come to my place."

"Cool, let's talk then. I just- there's so much going on in my mind. I need to get some rest and get my head straight." Even though I'm pretty sure getting rest is gonna be impossible. I'm gonna try my best.

Chloe gives me a hug and tells me to not worry. She walks to her place and I walk inside my house. Mum's not home. Thank goodness. I go straight upstairs. I walk into the washroom and clean myself up. Take a bath to calm myself down. I guess I even dozed off a little. I'm tired.