ALONE AGAIN [ KTH 18+]

Chapter 12

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I want you to listen to 'Faith' by The Weeknd  while you read this chapter (It's a must) . I think it describes  Taehyung's feelings deeply . I will also write some lines of the lyrics in the middle of the paragraphs. Enjoy -😉

⚠ TRIGGER WARNING ⚠

This chapter mentions 🚨'Drug usage' 🚨, that may be triggering for some readers.

So I cut away the pain,

Got it swimming in my veins

Faith by The Weeknd

TAEHYUNG'S POV

"You were ignoring me just so you could run away from my questions. You left just so you couldn't admit that you don't love me anymore right?" 'No of course not'

"What? No. I didn't left because of that" 'I mean it Y/n believe me'

"Care to explain why you left me then?'' 'I can't tell you that. I'm sorry'.

"I can't do that" 'It's hard for me to tell you that'.

"See?! You always do this Taehyung! You always leave someone without an explanation. Where were you?! Why did you leave?!''

'I was fighting my demons on my own'

'I'm trying my best not to fall for you. I'm no good for you'

"I hate you Taehyung! You're selfish. You always got me questioning my worth" 'Please don't say that Y/n. You worth more to me than you know' "I wish I never knew you" I saw her as she walked away from me. Leaving me behind. 'Don't go please, I'm dying Inside.'

' I wish I never gave birth to you. You're no good son. You bring misery to everyone ' 'Shut Up!! Shut the fuck up!'

It just take a few seconds to recall all the bad memories. I know I'm selfish Y/n. I always confuse you.

I'm afraid that we can't be like we used to be. I'm a mess Y/n.

I rushed over my car, as the words kept playing on loop inside my head. Gosh how much I hated this feeling. I thought they were fading slowly. But it takes just a little reminder to recollect that I'm a trashy, meritless and a selfish human.

I want a distraction right now. I don't wanna feel the sorrow anymore. I want to get over you Y/n. I keep hurting you even though I love you. I can't even explain why I left you. I can't explain why I hurt you. My hands started shaking as I started the engine. The anxiety, the fear and the memories started to fill my mind. A deep sigh escaped my mouth as I closed my eyes. I need to go there. I decided.