ALONE AGAIN [ KTH 18+]

Chapter 16

'Baby I'm jealous'

It's been two years since I felt his soft lips. Two fucking years since I craved his touch....so I gave in...I kissed him back.

He kissed me aggressively. I know I should stop him but it seems like my mind has no power of stopping this feeling. My hands had no control over the action as they were pinned by his large ones. His kiss made me wanna cry.

All this pain I've endured for the past two years, the emptiness, the loneliness and the feeling of his touch. The feeling of his soft lips on mine. All this mixed up emotions that were bottled up inside me are finally out now.

His lips moved aggressively, making me forget about everything except the feeling and the sensation. He held my face harshly as our tongue tangled. My hands went from pushing his chest away to wrapping around his neck.

But truth is, he did it all because he saw me with Eunwoo earlier. He was jealous, he wanted me to himself. He kissed me because he was furious.

He always confuses me. He was the one who claimed that he have a girlfriend few weeks ago. And now he's kissing me inside the elevator because jealousy took over him? 'Why?why am I not stopping him?'.

"Stop!" I said breathlessly as I looked up at him. He did as I said and looked directly into my eyes with worry written clearly all over his features.

The elevator came to a stop once I finished talking, and I took the opportunity to push him aside and run down the emergency stairs of the building, my heart was bating so fast that I could barely breath.

'Why did he have to kiss me? Why did he have to set a fire of ecstasy just to turn it of in a blink of an eye? Does he love me or not ? Am I just a game for him?'

I walked into a random rest room and closed the door hurriedly.

I just wished to live normal life like the others. I wished I could have a healthy relationship with him. Am I the problem? I looked myself in the mirror, my eyes were teary. I promised myself not cry anymore.

My whole life people treated me like I was a second option. My parents weren't there in my toughest times of my life. I needed them more than anything else in the world. But none of them was there for me. Growing up I accepted the fact that I can't be happy and I lowkey assumed that maybe I deserved all this.

I really wanted a mother that can brush my hair before I go to bed, I needed a mom who can comfort me, who can sacrifice everything just to be with me. I don't know how it feels to have mother. I don't know how it feels to be scolded by my mother, how to be loved and to be cherished. Unlike my father my mother was always there: but only physically.

Then growing up I realized that I needed someone who can protect me and my mother. Someone who can give me advises, a man that can support me and love me unconditionally. I was seeking for a superhero. 'You know people always say that a father will always be a superhero for his child'. But unfortunately he was never there.

So basically I went through my darkest times without the two important pillars of my life. When I met Taehyung I thought I had it all. Cause he offered me affection, support and a shoulder to lean on. And just when I thought I was healing, he broke me into pieces. It seems like he just wanna play with me.