ALONE AGAIN [ KTH 18+]

Chapter 2

  "I miss you a little too much a little too often and a little more everyday"

I come to our apartment whenever I feel sad or when I want some space alone, staying in this apartment helps me forget everything it's like I'm talking to Taehyung, it may seem stupid but whenever I'm here I feel like I'm with him, when I saw him today I still felt the butterflies in my stomach.

 I don't know why I can't get him off my mind.

 I wish I could forget him and move on with my life but it seems like everything brings me back to him, it hurts to know that he doesn't care about me, it hurts to know that no matter how much I love him, his feelings for me has vanished long time ago, 'why does everyone leaves me?'

In the end I'm all alone, tears rolled down my cheeks thinking about the fact that he moved on with his life so easily 'why do I have the feeling that I don't belong anywhere?' I'm mad at my father for leaving me alone in this cruel world, I'm mad at my mother for leaving me in my darkest times and I'm mad at Taehyung for leaving me when I started hoping that everything was going to be alright. He made me believe that maybe I could be a better person. But he left me.

This place reminds me how much happy I was with Taehyung even though my life was full of sadness, spending time with him helped me forget all the chaos and hardship that's going on in my life. It's like entering in a world where only me and Taehyung live.

My father once told me that not everybody in your life will come to teach you a lesson; some will vibe with you and just make you realize what life feels like.

I always thought about the reason why he left ' Maybe I wasn't enough for him?' ' Am I that ugly?', ' Maybe he had enough of my boring life' I'm still blaming myself for the break up.

FLASHBACK

TWO YEARS AGO

Y/N'S POV

ON THE PHONE

''We need to talk y/n!'' 'y/n? he has never called me by my name? is he mad?' ''Is everything okay Tae?'' I asked him concerned '' I don't have time to explain this I want you to meet me at our apartment! we need to discuss something!'' he hung up the phone immediately. 'what's wrong with him?'

LATER THAT NIGHT

I was waiting him for almost a decade, but he didn't show up 'what's with Tae today?', maybe I should prepare dinner he will be starving when he'll arrive.

But when I was about to walk over the kitchen I heard the front door opening,' finally he came!' I exclaimed happily 'what took you so long Tae?! I was worried!'' I said and run over him so I could hug him like I used to, but Tae's next action shocked me, he used his two hands and hold firm my shoulders.

'' I don't have time for this Y/N! let's get this straight! I wanna break up with you!'' 'that's what he said. ' 'Am I hearing this right?'

''Stop playing Tae what are you talking about ? what's up with you today''' I laughed nervously.

''I'm not playing y/n I want to end our relationship, I'm done with your shit, now that we are graduated I wanna focus on my future I don't want to be distracted'' ' what?! am I only a distraction to you?

''Are you saying that I'm a waste of time?'' I asked him with a sad tone '' yes y/n ! I don't need you in my life anymore!'' ' is he going to leave me just like my mother did?

I can't let that happen '' but I need you Tae! I need you in my life!'' I raised my voice and hold the hem of his t-shirt tightly '' please don't leave me like this! Let's talk about this Taetae maybe we could work things out'' I pleaded with a voice full of dejectedness.

Taehyung walked backward as my hands let go the hem of his t-shirt '' I'm sorry y/n, it's over! I came here to tell you that I will no longer live in this apartment I'm going to move at my parent's mansion, I'm not taking my clothes with me so you can do whatever you want with them, either throw them or burn them I don't care!'' he said with a cold tone.

This was too much for my head and' MY HEART', everything happened so instantly that I couldn't process anything, but the only thing I knew was that I had to beg him to stay, I can't let him go like my mother, I should beg him to stay.

Taehyung placed the keys on the shelve beside him and turned around making his way out '' no, no, no Tae don't leave like this please, Please Tae don't leave me I'm begging you don't do this to me'' I followed him as tears run down my cheeks.

END OF FLASHBACK

Y/N'S POV

Sometimes there are things that we don't want them to happen, but have to accept,

Things we don't want to know, but have to learn,

People we can't live without, but have to let go,

The worst feeling is missing someone but not being able to talk to them, the helplessness and anger that holds your soul into sadness, and the worst part is that you can't even tell anyone so you just ' smile'.

This was how I spent my nights, crying over him and blaming myself for everything.

I climbed off the bed and made my way to the bathroom to do my night skincare routine.

Back in the days in college I was one of those girls who doesn't care much about her looks, I didn't care about my outfits or hairstyles.

The only thing I love was wearing hoodies, specially Taehyung's ,he used to give me his hoodies but he never asked me to give them back to him , so I end up keeping it for myself. It's funny how things changed so quickly I'm not the y/n I used to be and he is not the Taetae he used to be.

After I removed my makeup and moisturized my skin, I walked to my bedroom ,crawled into bed, and drifted to sleep.

A/N: Hey dear readers 🤗,

Hope you liked this chapter.

It's obvious that she loves Taehyung still now...Do you think he feels the same way about her?

Feel free to write your opinions.😊

Love ya💜