My Life As A Greaser Girl (Outsiders fanfic)

Chapter 2.

I ended up crying for only ten minutes but it seemed like an eternity.

The sun was setting on our town ending our day yet again. Sunsets reminded me of my mom. She used to hold me and we'd watch the sun go down. I could never sit still and never really enjoyed those moments. I wish I had.

"Crap. I'm okay. I'm done crying now," I sniffle. I wipe my nose with the back of my sleeve. "Do you know what time it is?"

"About seven I guess," Johnny replied. He stared at the sky, the little moon so bright even at a million miles away.

"What are you thinking about, Johnny Cade?" I ask, playing with a dead worm.

"Nothing that concerns you," Johnny snaps. I ever so slightly gasped. I've been snapped at millions of times by my father, mother, cops but never by Johnny. He saw the hurt in my eyes. "Aster, I'm sorry for snappin' at ya."

"It's fine."

"No, it's not." Don't argue about my feelings! Seriously?

"Seriously, Johnny, drop it."

"You don't deserve to be talked to like that," he said, not looking at me. He picked up a rock and threw it at a squirrel. He missed.

"Johnny? What is this about?" No reply. "Is this about the accident and the break up?" I ask cautiously.

Me and Johnny broke up about a year ago. I had been dating him for about three or four years. We clicked good, looked out for each other and everything, but then it happened.

Johnny had just gotten beaten the hell out of by the Socs. I was so pissed that it wasn't even funny. I lit Bob's car on fire. Little did I know was that there was a baby in the backseat of that car. Bob was babysitting his little sister, I don't remember her name. I followed his car to the grocery store and he went inside. I broke through the car window and threw the match in. And he came back with her juice box she asked for to see his car on fire with his baby sister crying in the backseat. Once the fire was catching, I noticed the baby girl. I didn't want to smash the window cause I didn't want to hurt her. Bob unlocked the car and I grabbed her out of there. I still have scars on my arms. The girl lost her leg. Of course, Bob got revenge. He told my dad my mom was cheating and had proof to this day I don't know what it was and he filed a divorce. Bob took my parents away from me. My dad became and alcoholic and hits me from time to time. He can be sweet sometimes though which makes me stay. He can be a father.

I broke up with Johnny before I went to the cooler. I spent a year in there. I am never going to go back. I'll die before I do. The thing is that people think Johnny is quiet because he got beaten up by the Socs and is scared. He's not scared of them. He's scared of feeling something. He doesn't want to lose anything again.

"What makes you say that?"

"Because you are as cautious as hell when you are with me." I sniff. "Look, I'm sorry about what I did. To you and Bob both. I'm sorry I made you afraid but dammit Johnny! Just forgive me!" I am getting angry. I'm getting mad. I'm getting furious.

He didn't speak. He kisses my forehead and stood up. "Aster, I have always forgiven you and I will continue to as you continue to make stupid decisions." I manage a laugh. "I love you, girly."

"You know I love you too Johnny. But it can't be that way again. Maybe someday, but not for a while."

"I know, Rose. I know." He always called me by my second first name. (Aster Rose is a two part first name in case you were confused.) That was our little thing. He walked away, leaving me in the lot.

I put my blade in my pocket but a little bit of the blade still shows (just in case any Socs want to fight and they can see I have a weapon) and watch the stars start to peek through the clouds. The silver blade shined in the last bits of brightness before the world went black.

~*~*~*~*~*~

I stepped onto Ponyboy's lawn and grabbed the ladder by the fence. It's half buried in dirt and there are ants on it. I never liked bugs. I carry the ladder anyway and lean it against the house. I haul myself up and walk on the roof over to Ponyboy's window. It's unlocked as usual. Rust is growing on the frame and the paint is chipping away.

I tug the window open and climb inside. I land next to Pony's desk and notice how messy his room is. Papers are everywhere and dirty underwear is on the floor. I can't stand messy rooms. Once I went to Two Bit's house and punched him for being such a pig. Me and his mother agreed on this matter. I like his mother. We made his clean his bedroom.

"What are you doing?" someone asks, breaking me away from my memories. I look to see Ponyboy shirtless. Immediately, I grab a pillow and throw it at him.

"Put a shirt on!" I ordered, turning away. It's not a problem for him to be shirtless but I don't really want to see a fourteen year old boy that still hasn't had puberty hit him very hard yet.

"I didn't know it was illegal to be shirtless in the comfort of you own home," he says, laughing. "Alright, hold on." I hear him shuffling through his dresser he and Sodapop shared. "The coast is clear."

"Yeah, okay," I say, smiling while turning back around. I offer a cigarette but he declined.

"Naw, I've already had two packs today and Darry will kill me if he found out I had more. I don't want one anyway." I decide not to light one.

"Well, hello darling Rosie!" Sodapop says, entering the room. "What do we owe the honor to have you in our humble room?"

"Nothing, but I was wondering if I could crash on you couch tonight."

"Yeah, sure, but ask Darrel first."

"Darry says it's okay," Darry says, joining us in the room that was now crowded. "But in return, you have to cook breakfast tomorrow."

"Yeah, that'll be fine."

"Alright. Go to the closet and get some blankets for yourself. I'm heading to bed." He turned to face Soda and Pony. "You two dimwits go to bed too."

"Alright, alright."

~*~*~*~

I lay in the darkness of the living room, hearing whispers that belong to Ponyboy and Sodapop. I wrap myself in blankets and close my eyes.

"Goodnight Mom," I whisper.

Sleep comes to me about an hour later.

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