Gunpoint Avenue

Chapter 5: I Need A Break

Everyone stopped what they are doing to look at me after I just asked where the kid was at. We had all the time to see if everyone was okay, but no one focused on the child at all.

"I thought you said that he was with you all in this room?" Agent Snipe questions.

"He was and then, he walked out with stating where he was going," I tell him.

"Why didn't you report to any of us that he left?" Agent Clandestine asks.

"I hate to say this, but I was sulking over what happened during the mission. I legit had an emotional and mental breakdown. I know that it's not appropriate for a spy to cry or feel any emotions during a mission. But I felt so sorry about the kid and how I handled the situation." I explain myself. Everyone is quiet, all I hear are their breaths, and feel judgment sent my way.

"You all know that I am the most reliable member of our agency and I would not let anything go wrong. But I feel like I failed everyone today." I express my true thoughts.

"Look, I know that you feel bad about the kid and what happened, but you should not beat yourself up over it." Agent Elite tells me.

"He's right. We all feel terrible whenever we have to hurt or kill people." Agent Graves added in.

"That's shocking hearing that from you. Don't you get excited whenever you have to kill someone?" I question him.

"Yeah, I do enjoy attacking and killing enemies, but it's not like I feel good about it afterward. I only kill because that's my job to stop bad guys. Plus, I was trained to kill." He explains.

"I agree with Agent Graves as well. Becoming a spy is to hurt and kill. We try our best not to get physical as we want to resolve the situation quickly and properly. But we are all professionally trained to fight and kill when it's necessary." Agent Indigo chimes in.

All these different voices and words being thrown at me are overwhelming me. I do appreciate that almost everyone is trying to help me out, but my mind still worries about the child. If I could turn back time, I would have handled things better.

"Can I take the rest of the day off and go home? I'm not feeling the best mentally right now. I need to clear my mind and go to sleep." I ask. Usually, I never ask for breaks unless it's the official time for a break. But this day has rotted my brain that I can't take it anymore.

"Yeah, we will take you home. Let us know when you feel better because you are reliable during our missions. You are a top-tier agent in our agency and you are a great person." Agent Snipe tells me. I'm glad that he is allowing me to take a break. Most bosses especially in spy agencies would fire their employees and replace them, but he does appreciate me. I respect that he is treating me like a human and not just an agent.

"Thank you!" I tell him.

"Let's get out of this building and call this mission. I think we all deserve a break." Agent Snipe commands.

"I couldn't agree more" Agent Seni blurts out and almost everyone in the building chuckles. I did not laugh since I'm still in a bad mental state.

"What's going to happen now with this mission? We're not going to investigate more?" I ask.

"I will let the New York Police Department handle the rest. Don't worry, I will make sure they find that kid. New York might be a big area, but he can't be gone forever. Someone will notice a little kid without a guardian roaming around." Agent Snipe informs me.

"Alright, let's go!" Agent Indigo yells out. Everyone grabs their items and starts leaving the building.

Hopefully, this break can help clear my mind. I don't want to be moping all the time and worry about a little kid. I'm a spy! I bleed, sweat, and live this lifestyle. Like Agent Snipe said, I'm a top-tier agent. That's a phenomenal title to have. I should not squander it all on one mission. I can't wait to go back home and pray that I will be back in action.