Gunpoint Avenue

Chapter 15: I Retire

"I had enough of everything!" I shout. My blood is boiling and my patience is at an all time low. I'm trying my hardest to fight back the tears.

There are several different looks projecting at me; some are concerned, feel sorry for me, looking at me like I'm crazy, or trying their hardest to cover their laughter.

Right now, I feel defeated and ashamed. I storm the premises, heading back to the car. Hopefully, no one tries to stop me!

"Agent Dawn, come back!" Agent Graves shouts out.

I'm in shock that of all people, he would be calling me back. All the arguments, disagreements, and questioning, he has caused it onto me. Why would he want me back?

"Wait Dawn... Don't go, we need you!" Agent Seni blocks my path to tell me. The sincerity on her face is killing me. I can not walk past her since she is my favorite person ever and she feels worried about my well being. I let out a sigh, staying in place, even though I want to leave right now.

"Why did you say you want to retire? What's going on?" Agent Snipe asks.

"I'm done with everything!" I break down in tears.

"I'm tired of all the arguments, pain, tears, and seeing innocent kids dying." I look at the dead child's body, it gives me chills and heartache each time I look at him. "I did not sign up to see children getting hurt and killed. It broke my heart seeing Jack's lifeless body and his mother crying."

The only sound I hear are my tears. Everyone is silent, struggling to find something to say to me.

"Look... I know this is a tough situation for you. Trust me, it makes me and everyone here sick to their stomachs that an innocent boy got murdered. But you don't have to retire, especially since we're so close to finding Julian's child." Agent Snipe says to me.

"He is right. We found out the last name of Julian, the mother of Jack knows about Julian and his son, the bodyguards are still alive in prison, and a random woman witnessed the child roaming around New York. So we're one step closer of finding him and completing this mission." Agent Graves gives his reasoning for me to stay. It kills me to say this, but they are right. I am this close of finding the child. If it was not for me taking a chance and caring for him, this mission would not have happened.

But right now, I don't care anymore if we find Julian's child or not. I want to retire and not think about anything spy related. The word "spy" does not mean anything to me. I even question what type of spy work have we even accomplished. Spies are meant to be one or two people sneaking and getting the job done. In our agency, we all stick together in a group. We're basically like police officers or the swat team. We can call ourselves spies, but we're not doing traditional spy work.

As I am sulking and thinking, from the corner of my eye, I see Agent Clandestine and Agent Graves silently chuckling to one another. My blood begin to boil! My feelings went from sad to mad real quick. Without any warning, I punch Agent Graves hard in his face.

"Why did you do that?!" He furiously shouts, holding his right cheek with his hands.

The whole crowd is watching. There are people taking photos, reporters catching the incident, police officers and detectives trying to figure out what's all the commotion, and every agent is in shock. I'm causing a disruption by my emotions and actions, but I could not hold back my frustration with Agent Graves.

I never used to have issues with him. He is one of the best spies in our field. I respected him for his hard work and how easily he defeated enemies. He used to respect me a lot as a leader and never questioned my thought process or leadership skills. But ever since Julian and his child came to the picture; he is constantly arguing with me, going against me, making me look weak, and putting all the blame on me. Seeing him laugh while I was suffering was the last straw.

"You are one of the main reasons why I'm retiring!" I respond, looking at him deep in his eyes and showing no fear.

"Why? What did I do to you to deserve a punch in the face?" He asks. I'm shocked that he is bewildered, even though it is clear as day what he did.

"Everything!" I angrily tell him. The commotion is growing as everyone is paying attention. "You constantly argue with me, treating me like I'm a fool or crazy. You were the first one that disrespected Julian's child and how he was feeling. You didn't want anything to do with this mission because you thought it was stupid and a waste of time."

"You know what, I had enough of you! You said that I'm treating you like a fool? You made me look like a bad guy, which I am not!" He rebuttals, but is only making things worse.

"I never treated you like a bad guy. Honestly, I never said anything negative towards you." I tell him, trying my hardest to diffuse the situation.

"Whenever I let my opinions out about this mission, you automatically dismiss it. You treat me like I'm the worst person in the world." He is getting angrier by the minute. It's concerning me right now.

"Alright, let's end all this now! We still got a mission to focus on." Agent Snipe steps in.

"You know what... Screw this mission, screw you Agent Snipe, screw you Agent Dawn, and screw the WOA!" He storms off, leaving everyone speechless.

I leave as well. This whole mission was a disaster. It is for the best that I retire. I do feel bad for not accomplishing what I started and walking away from helping the child. But I did not know that all this drama and pain was going to happen. I hope the kid gets found and is safe. May God forgive me for not helping him.