✔︎ SECRETS • sunghoon

21.ㅤThe Fight

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irang was exhausted, drained, and just overwhelmed at the moment. these days, things were just piling up, and irang— the usually quick witted and organized girl— found herself struggling to compete with her own schedule.

her volleyball team members grew worried for her, especially when she lashed out after constant mistakes. irang was never one to shout or walk away. sure, she'd scold them, but it was always in a decent manner.

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halt the training, talk to each members, assess what's wrong, and try to make things better for each other. that's how irang usually leads. but these times, she'd just shout around, storm off, or break down into tears.

everytime they try to ask her what's wrong, she'd either pretend that nothing was ever wrong, or she'd push them away. it went on and on for a week now. it frustrated them, but they also knew irang better. this is not her, it's clear that she's going through something.

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no one has any idea what was happening, and when irang blew her cool again— they knew something has to be done. so, their last resort was to consult heeseung.

heeseung, on the other hand, was trying his best to understand his girlfriend. he, too, has no idea why irang always felt tired, drained, or even depressed. maybe.. he actually did. he has a clue as to why there's a sudden shift in irang's attitude. but he couldn't accept it quite yet.

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if only he knows that sunghoon is that one person irang solely depends her mood, energy, and day from. then maybe he would think again about the consequences of making irang feel like she needed to choose between him and sunghoon. or perhaps, he would've had second thoughts in pursuing her at all.

"irang." heeseung calls at the absent-minded girl, who was looking blankly at the food he prepared.

"hm?" irang blinked a few times, before looking at heeseung with a pokerface.

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"what are you so in deep in thought for?" heeseung queries while irang slowly looked away. she was already growing upset for no reason at all.

maybe she just needed to be alone... or she just needs a certain company to keep her at peace.

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"i'm just thinking of..." she hesitated.

"nothing.." irang decided to lie, knowing it was better than having to deal with a fight that always result to the same thing.

"seriously irang, this is not you..." heeseung sat straight and faced irang, hands gently reaching out to make her face him. "even your teammates are growing worried. what's bothering you?"

irang only chuckled at his question and drifted off a little far from her boyfriend. "it's not like i could really tell you."

"irang, i'm your boyfriend. you can tell me literally everything." heeseung uttered, pain hinted in his words. of course he'd be hurt. his own girlfriend doesn't even trust him.

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meanwhile, irang only sighed, knowing where this conversation would go.

"it's about sunghoon, okay?" she says and expectantly looked at heeseung, whose frown grew worse as he processed what irang said.

"...again? " heeseung's eyebrows furrowed, now growing upset over irang's attitude.

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irang scoffed. "see? and you're telling me that i can tell you everything?" she smiled sarcastically as she crossed her arms.

"only sunghoon ever stick up to his words, unlike you." irang was going too far. despite the stress she's been into, heeseung did not deserve this.

she knew that, but she still acted on impulse... and said things she didn't mean.

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"you're complaining because i'm like this? well, if you liked me just for who i was when i still had my bestfriend around, then i'm sorry to tell you— she's not here anymore."

"yeah, i'm at fault in this relationship. i'm wrong to even let us start."

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"you don't know just how much sunghoon means to me. you think that i'm all clouds and rainbows, don't you? your actions, your words, everything. you made me feel pressured to choose you, when truthfully— i would've chosen sunghoon instead."

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