My Love from Heaven

MLFH 16

Isang linggo na magbuhat nung mawala si Mamita. And I didn't visit her funeral.. I can't visit her. Not because, I hate her or I don't want to see her. It's just...I'm hurt.

And I don't want to see anyone asking me or looking at me then ask if I'm okay. Non-sense questions, it's obvious! I'm not.

'Mamita, I will miss you...' I thought. 'Mamita, you promised me you will not leave me by my side...'

My life is miserable, well actually, ALMOST. Mom, Dad and Mamita. Now who will be the next one?! Lahat ng mahahalaga sakin, nawawala.

What will I do next? After crying, I don't know but sometimes, gusto kong sumunod sa kanila. I have Yaya Sitti. She's the last person, and I'm hoping that she won't leave me..

My life sucks. -____-

I haven't come home to our house/Mansion. Three days na ako sa condom na to.. I don't want to go home, coz' for sure Yaya Sitti will force me to eat. While Mei..She will just yell at me at baka sisihin na naman ako.

I'm going to miss Mamita...

Ugh, I'm hungry.

*riiing riiiiing riiing ri--*

"What do you need?" I asked with my calm voice. Even though I cried, kailangan kong panindigan ang pagiging calm girl ko..

[Thank God, you answered my call! My God Keira Park! Everyone's looking for you here on Mamita's funeral! Where are you?! Why don't you come visit to your Mamita's last day of funeral?!]

I'd like too, but I cant. I closed my eyes to stop the teardrops, but I can't.

I sniffed while I put the phone away from my ears. And after that, I put it back and replied. "I'm sorry, I can't."

[What's wrong with you, Keira?! This is your Mamita's last funeral tapos hindi ka pa pupunta? Ano bang problema mo?! Masyado kang pa-importante!]

"I said, I can't. shut up."

[Si Mamita ang nasa libing.. Akala ko ba KALAHATING PERSYENTO syang parte sa buhay mo? Sabihin mo nga saken! Niloloko mo ba si Mamita?!]

"I never lied to her."

[Keira, I know she needs you. I know she wants you to visit her.. Keira, please..]

"I can't. I really can't."

[FINE! If that's what you want! Sana pagsisihan mo yan! Btw, I'm going home. Babalik na ako sa Australia.. Hindi ko na kaya pang tumagal dito, at sayo! Masyado kang pa-importante! Si Mamita lang naman dadalawin, tapos panigurado iisipin mo pa talaga yung mga taong--]

I hunged up.

And...

Cry. I throw my phone away, I don't care kung masira sya.

I hate YOU! Now I can say... YOU stole everything from ME! Wala ng natira! What's wrong with YOU?! What did I do wrong?! I thought YOU were real. But when my loved ones left me... I find out that YOU'RE fake.