WASTE OF TIME

HATE IS A STRONG WORD

CHAPTER EIGHT: HATE IS A STRONG WORD

" I won't give a fuck about you "
- Sabrina Carpenter (Good Graces)

In my last year of school before college, isa lang ang nasa isip ko, kung paano ako maghahanap nang trabaho, a part-time job for myself. Hanggang ngayon hindi ko pa rin kung ano ba ang gusto kong gawin sa buhay ko, I have a vision but I don't know kung yun ba ang gusto ko.

Gusto ko na ngang magsimula pero ayaw pa rin nang mga magulang ko nung time na yon. They want me to study. They want me to focus just like my twin sister. But I was too worried for them kaya gusto ko na agad magtrabaho para matulungan sila.

Now that I've graduated, it's different. Puro na 'ko trabaho, hinahanap ko yong tamang trabaho na talagang gusto ko. But it's hard. Sometimes I end up getting the job that I didn't want but I knew I needed.

"Ano ulet yung trabaho?" Tanong ko kay Silas paglabas naming dalawa sa restaurant.

He offered me the job before so I waited for him kung anong trabaho yon, he just said he needed me and I agreed.

Agad niyang hinablot yung sigarilyo sa daliri ko at tinapon sa malapit na basurahan, laglag ang panga ko sa ginawa niya.

"You can't smoke here, remember? I'm going to show you the job, well... introduce you to the job."

I sighed.

I didn't get to smoke this morning, I told myself na siguro kahit isang beses lang sa isang araw okay na, I know it's still not okay but I can't just quit like that. It takes time.

Silas picked me up from Zaiden's coffee shop, kumain kami pagkatapos sa restaurant kasi pareho kaming gutom, he said he also needed some time away from someone kasi nagseselos daw siya.

Yes, Silas Nakamoto gets jealous, which is new to me.

Never did I think he'll ever get jealous of anything. And of course, I knew who it was, it was Charlotte. Charlotte told me about some things, medyo nasorpresa ako, 'di ko inaakala na ganon pala sila, I would ask her about the details but I think she has a lot of issues right now with him kaya bahala siya.

"Fine. You can tell me, kahit konti, 'di pwede?"

"Hm, okay." Tango niya at pinindot yung button sa elevator pagpasok naming dalawa.

"Alam mo ang plano ko, 'di ba?"

"Creating your boy band?" Ngisi ko.

"Nope, not there yet. I'm only introducing my first group of male models so I can publish a calendar by the end of the year, maganda rin for exposure for a new agency."

It's only been a few months since he started his own agency. Ang daming nagtaka kung bakit agency, everyone thought he will focus on his bar and his clubs. I'm sure he has confidence in what he wants to do tsaka may pera rin naman siya para don.

"And? What am I doing?"

"I want you to be a temporary manager for one of them. Marami rami na rin siyang shoot, he's becoming popular in Instagram, and he's already called in for magazine shoots. I was his manager, I managed everything to help him, but I was also helping others. Now that I have other things to manage, I need other people to manage the models. That's why... I need you!" He smiled, poking my cheek with his index finger.

So manager? Gusto niya 'kong maging manager?

"Don't worry, I'll deal with all the shoots and his work, you will deal with taking care of him."