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"𝗮𝘀 𝗹𝗼𝗻𝗴 𝗮𝘀 𝘆𝗼𝘂'𝗿𝗲 𝗻𝗲𝘅𝘁 𝘁𝗼 𝗺𝗲. 𝗷𝘂𝘀𝘁 𝘁𝗵𝗲 𝘁𝘄𝗼 𝗼𝗳 𝘂𝘀. 𝘆𝗼𝘂'𝗿𝗲 𝗺𝘆, 𝗺𝘆, 𝗺𝘆, 𝗺𝘆 𝗸𝗶𝗻𝗱 𝗼𝗳 𝘄𝗼𝗺𝗮𝗻. 𝗺𝘆, 𝗼𝗵 𝗺𝘆, 𝘄𝗵𝗮𝘁 𝗮 𝗴𝗶𝗿𝗹."- 𝗺𝗮𝗰 𝗱𝗲𝗺𝗮𝗿𝗰𝗼

we sat at a table way in the back of the restaurant, it was very pretty. there were candles all around it, lighting up the table. the table has two wine glasses set up. if anything i never had good wine. most of the wine i had came from walmart. you know the cheap kind that comes in a cardboard box.

i had never been anywhere so fancy, it's honestly kind of strange to me still. i'm a silly girl that this kid met a club and he still has taken a very strong interest in me. after all when i meet someone at the club i know i'll never see them again. the whole car ride here consisted of me and him laughing at his dad "jokes."

the jokes were so unfunny that they were funny. in all honesty the more unfunny a joke is, the funnier it is to me. joão told me he reserved the back for us just in case anyone got any pictures. he felt really bad because we had to sit in the back but i really don't mind. in someways i like it.

i like observing the habits of people. for example, it's obvious it's our waiters first day here, he keeps scratching his head, picking at his nails, and pacing around. it's weird how you can read someone by the way they're doing things. my phone dinged and i looked down to see a message from jasmine.

she has not stopped messaging me as soon as she left my house. she more nervous for me than i am. i read the message. "did you pack gum?" oh lord, jasmine is going to be the death of me. wait did i pack gum? oh i hope i did! i don't want another experience like my first kiss.

now that was the worst kiss i had ever gotten, and it was my first! i was fourteen and at a park. me and my best friend had snuck out at like two in the morning. there were these group of boys we were supposed to meet and my friend had a crush on one of them. being the good friend i was i took one for the team and started talking to his friend.

i was cold and he could tell and he put his arm around me. i'm throwing up just thinking about it. anyways, we sit on the bench he leans in and he kisses me. but before i can do anything a security guard shines his light on both of us and we bolt off running. and then he asked me to be his girlfriend.

all in one night! most of the guys after that we're just silly little place holders until i found the one. that's my one dream, apart from my others of course. finding the person that brings me peace. where i can completely be myself and not be ashamed. we all dream of something like that.

even if we find it within ourselves, or through someone else we long for the feeling. ever since we're kids we dream of a happy ending, and even if you don't want to admit we all want a happy ending. right now i'm at peace. with him there's a sort of light he brings out in me.

i can't really see why, but he does. looking at him from across this table it's like all the pieces are coming together. i'm not the sappy love sick type, but with him i am. i don't even know why. i think if jasmine heard any of my thoughts she would burst out laughing. i think anyone would.

the candle light made his skin shine. "𝗾𝘂𝗶𝘁 𝗹𝗼𝗼𝗸𝗶𝗻𝗴 𝗮𝘁 𝗺𝗲." he said laughing. i flipped him off as the waiter came to take me and joão's order. these heels are hurting my feet. "𝘆𝗼𝘂 𝗴𝗼𝗼𝗱?" he said shooting me a look. i nodded my head and pointed at my feet.

"𝘆𝗼𝘂 𝗸𝗻𝗼𝘄 𝘆𝗼𝘂 𝗰𝗮𝗻 𝘁𝗮𝗸𝗲 𝘁𝗵𝗲𝗺 𝗼𝗳𝗳?" "𝗶 𝗰𝗮𝗻'𝘁 𝘁𝗮𝗸𝗲 𝘁𝗵𝗲𝗺 𝗼𝗳𝗳 𝗳𝗲𝗹𝗶𝘅! 𝘁𝗵𝗶𝘀 𝗶𝘀 𝗮 𝗳𝗮𝗻𝗰𝘆 𝗿𝗲𝘀𝘁𝘂𝗿𝗮𝗻𝘁, 𝗶𝘁𝘀 𝗲𝗺𝗯𝗿𝗮𝘀𝘀𝗶𝗻𝗴!" i said face palming myself. usually if i wear heels and go places i bring some sneakers just in case. of course this is the one day i forget. "𝘆𝗼𝘂 𝗱𝗼𝗻'𝘁 𝗵𝗮𝘃𝗲 𝘁𝗼 𝗯𝗲 𝗲𝗺𝗯𝗿𝗮𝘀𝘀𝗲𝗱, 𝗶 𝗽𝗹𝗮𝘆 𝘄𝗶𝘁𝗵 𝗯𝗮𝗹𝗹𝘀 𝗳𝗼𝗿 𝗮 𝗹𝗶𝘃𝗶𝗻𝗴."

we both started cracking up. i did in fact take my shoes off after he said that. the waiter came back with our food shooting us a look, but it didn't faze us. we were two people having fun. we both stopped laughing and ate our food. i got lasagna, sticking with a basic option. it was so cheesy and good. joão had gotten some pasta thing that had a very difficult name to pronounce.

we both finished our meal and we were ready to head out. he had already paid the bill even though i insisted on paying for my meal but when i checked the price i backed out. i was about to stand up when i realized that my heels weren't on and i couldn't wake barefoot around the restaurant.

"𝘂𝗵 𝗳𝗲𝗹𝗶𝘅 𝗶 𝗰𝗮𝗻'𝘁 𝗴𝗲𝘁 𝗼𝘂𝘁 𝗼𝗳 𝗺𝘆 𝘀𝗲𝗮𝘁?" "𝗱𝗶𝗱 𝘆𝗼𝘂 𝗴𝗲𝘁 𝗴𝗹𝘂𝗲𝗱 𝘁𝗼 𝗶𝘁?!" he said panicking, i face palmed myself as i shook my head. this boy needs to go back to school. i pointed down to my feet, AGAIN. and he started laughing. "𝗰𝗼𝗺𝗲 𝗼𝗻 𝗮𝘀𝗵𝗮𝗻𝘁𝗶, 𝗶'𝗹𝗹 𝗰𝗮𝗿𝗿𝘆 𝘆𝗼𝘂." he said holding his arms out.

i jumped into his arms as he carried me bridal style. this was so embarrassing but fun at the same time. we went out the back door so no one saw us except the workers. when we reached his car he opened my door and placed me inside the passenger seat. he got in and turned on the air conditioner.

"𝗰𝗮𝗻 𝗶 𝗵𝗮𝘃𝗲 𝗮𝘂𝘅?" he nodded his head. "𝘆𝗼𝘂 𝗸𝗻𝗼𝘄 𝗮𝘀𝗵𝗮𝗻𝘁𝗶 𝘆𝗼𝘂 𝗱𝗼𝗻'𝘁 𝗵𝗮𝘃𝗲 𝘁𝗼 𝗮𝘀𝗸 𝗺𝗲 𝗳𝗼𝗿 𝘁𝗵𝗲 𝗮𝘂𝘅, 𝘆𝗼𝘂𝗿 𝗶𝗻 𝗺𝘆 𝗰𝗮𝗿 𝗮 𝗹𝗼𝘁 𝘀𝗼 𝘆𝗼𝘂 𝗰𝗮𝗻 𝗷𝘂𝘀𝘁 𝗵𝗮𝘃𝗲 𝗶𝘁 𝘄𝗵𝗲𝗻𝗲𝘃𝗲𝗿." he said smiling. i nodded my head and started searching apple music for a song to play. this was hard. i wanted something hype but also to fit the vibe.

we were currently sitting in the restaurants parking lot. i hit shuffle on my playlist, letting whatever song play. it was quiet and the only thing that could be heard was the music coming from the radio. our eyes met and we kept looking at each other.

our foreheads touched, only slightly though before he kissed me. i kissed him back almost immediately. i felt butterflies in my stomach as it all happened. the adrenaline rush i was getting was also not helping. this has to be my best day in portugal.

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i'm so sorry for not updating i was burnt out and i needed a break. but thank you sm for 1k reads, that means a lot. i honestly thought the book sucked when i started it but thank you. expect more frequent updates, but anyways my sister went into labor so i'm going to be an aunt! i'll update my neymar jr book soon! anyways i hope you guys enjoyed. one last thing before i go can anyone believe that magui and joão broke up what's y'all's opinions?